Idk why I even try so hard, or why I even want his attention and affection, by now I should be use to not having it…. He was gone for a year and a half and for that year and a half I missed him so much and from what he says he missed me just as much. And he said how much he would wish could be at home…. I thought when he finally did come home we would make up for all that time he was gone i thought he would wanna spend more time with me, but was I wrong sometimes I feel just as alone as I did when he was gone, actually it’s worse cause he’s right here and I still feel alone ….