Incognito Only! 👻

I’m just in my feelings because yesterday was my youngest daughter’s birthday and my “best friend” didn’t even acknowledge it, just sent me an iMessage game request.

my husband was supposed to be watching the baby so i could sleep in the morning and he set the baby 7 weeks old on the couch while he went to the restroom, well baby wiggled off and fell face first ☹️ i woke up to the crying we both ran to see he was laying face down on the tile floor and we rushed to the hospital they did X rays and they said nothing is wrong internally he just has a bruise on his forehead and bruised nose. IM SO HEARTBROKEN. we’re home now and baby is acting normally but i just feel like the worst parents ever. did this happen to anyone else ever or are we really the worst?? and is it likely he could get a long term disability from this ? has it happened to anyone else? also yes i’m very angry at my husband, i never leave the baby unsupervised. if something worse was wrong with the baby i was seriously considering divorce while sitting in the hospital room!

And I don't know how it got unblocked, I definitely didn't unblock him and my husband definitely didn't unblock him. I took his number going through as divine intervention. He told me he actually didn't expect me to answer and so he hadn't planned out what he wanted to say, but that he had had a revelation and that he needed to talk to me. I was at home depot trying to find hinges for a chest im refurbishing, and didn't realize I had stopped smack dab in the middle of the isle blocking the way and staring absently ahead. I asked him if I could call him back, we decided 7pm. It is currently 6:42pm. I feel like I am going to throw up, my heart is palpitating. I haven't seen him since a few days after my sons funeral, he was yelling at me in a thai restaurant on another one of his BPD loops where he recounted the many years of abuse he endured throughout his childhood. I would never stop someone from delivering an apology even if I have no intention of having them in my life, I believe that closure can allow people to move forward in their growth. No apology from him however can undo whats already been done to my amygdala, but it might get him a step closer to apologizing to my mom, who he owes much more than he owes me.

I just needed to get these words out into the void.

Idk what to do. I’m going crazy here at home because the fruit flies are just too much. Almost don’t even wanna be here that’s how much it’s bothering me. I live in a rural area, apartment and the end unit. I just got done cleaning my house. Sat down on the couch and noticed them all over my balcony window inside. I’m just disgusted, my son does in come therapy and I’m expecting them on Tuesday and I’m trying really hard to get them killed by then. I feel like they are coming in the drains and the balcony door even tho it’s closed . I have little glass mason jars like salt shakers with apple cider vinegar and a little dawn dish soap. I’ve gotten a lot so far. Cleaned out my cabinets. Threw all fruits away, and poured boiling water down every drain. I’m not sure if I’m ocd or something but dude this is too much.

If you have any tips on how to get rid of them that I haven’t tried let me know. Thanks

Anyone else. I feel like it's affecting me mentally lol need to reach out but I can't not read about it