Hi all. Just looking for a little encouragement or even for someone to relate. I have a middle school aged kiddo, a 4 year old and a 2 month old. I am freshly stay at home. And let’s not forget 2 months postpartum lol
I feel like an imposter being at home with my kids. My two month old has a yeast infection that’s bothering her a lot, my 4 year old is attention starved and then my middle schooler comes home and gets frustrated by not having more time with me specifically. (We had some hospital stays for my 4 year old the last 2 months, plus me being postpartum/exhausted and now a clingy, hurting baby) I feel like an imposter thinking I could handle 3 kids. I feel split in 3- Nevermind not having anything left at the end of the day for my husband or myself. My house is a disaster (yes, I know this can wait, but it’s so overwhelming and not helping my mental chaos) my four year old is getting addicted to tv, my milk stash is almost gone from my husband taking a night feed for me and not having even a second to pump. How do you balance multiple kids, quality pumping time, cleaning, cooking, etc?!
I can’t even get time to eat, let alone shower. Is this temporary?? Is this postpartum?? I can’t just let my 2month old cry- I have a physical reaction to it so she’s attached to me constantly but my 4 year old needs me. I’m sure park time would help but I need to pump! What the heck is this life lol I’m at my wits end.