So devastated 🫠

This was such a stressful pregnancy after having an ectopic pregnancy exactly 2 years ago and a chemical pregnancy 6 months ago. Throughout the early pregnancy I’d been worried about every bit of spotting and cramping. At 6 weeks I got a reassuring scan showing it was in the right place and had a strong heart beat. I relaxed a little after we were told that once a heartbeat is found, chance of miscarriage drops drastically. Then three weeks ago (at 7.5 weeks) i had some morning spotting and went to the Dr to just make sure it was norm. I was told there’s no heart beat anymore 🫠 just devastated. But my Dr kept saying don’t lose hope, your HCG is still increasing, the scan may be wrong. So I kept hoping and praying that everything was fine. Blood tests every week showed my HCG was increasing but slowing down 😑 Dr would keep saying “don’t lose hope!” Then on Thursday (10 weeks) went in for a scan again and they confirmed there was no heartbeat and it had detached from my uterus and was sitting above my closed cervix 😔 they also said my HCG had dropped from 20,700 to 8,000 overnight. Then that night I had the most horrific pains, extreme heavy bleeding and I eventually passed the sack after feeling like I was dying (husband was packing me into the car on all fours). Now I feel horrific and empty and absolutely crushed beyond belief. I just want my baby. It’s so unfair. Everyone who says “oh miscarriages happen to everyone and you’ve just got to try again” have not suffered traumatic miscarriages and they need to stay quiet