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Residue.

Residue: a small amount of something that remains after the main part has gone or been taken or used. I feel this is all of me that is left. I am such a disappointment to everyone, including myself. When ever I talk about anything good about myself it is always in the past tense. "I uses to be this", "I uses to be that". I feel as if I am just existing, not living. I don't think anything will bring my spark back. I've tried a few suggestions that people have recommended to me (hobbies, women's groups, supplements, etc.) But to no avail. I feel so disconnected I don't feel suicidal necessarily, but only because I wouldn't want to have to leave anyone with financial burden of my funeral. I feel like a ghost. My jar isn't half empty or half full, just empty. I don't really have many reasons to be sad But I don't really have any reasons to be happy either. I try to stay busy with work and school, that seems to help. But when I am not doing that, I feel.....blah I never talk to anyone about this because I'm sure no one cares, no one gives a shit about anything unless it is somehow beneficial to themselves. I'm drowning in a very shallow pool of muddy water. I feel trapped. Help :(
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4 days ago

Find another therapist.. not all work.. I've gone through 4.. exercise help me.. self love even if you feel you don't deserve it.. because you do..

4 days ago

I sadly relate to this. I've found walking helps, it helps get all those bad voices out of my conscious and can the beauty in the world that is now. Just know you are not alone and talking is good to air your feelings with people that can relate xx

5 days ago

I am so sorry you feel like this . But know you are worthy of being loved . Please if you need someone to talk to I have a counseling certificate text me if you would like 662 669 0558

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You are not alone feeling like this I feel just the same my inbox is always open

last week

@Kat Thanks. I already do go to therapy and I am also on medications. They help sometimes. But medications are just a band-aid, I feel, honestly. I started taking Primrose about a month ago but I don't feel like it is helping..yet.

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