Struggling to acknowledge pregnancy

Tomorrow, I will be 13 weeks with my rainbow baby. My first pregnancy was a miscarriage in November last year- baby had trisomy 22. Has anyone else struggled with the transition into the second trimester? My symptoms are lessening and I’m feeling slightly more energy, but until I can feel the baby, I can’t help but be worried and anxious. Our NIPT test came back with no concerns and our last appointment went well, but I’m having trouble leaning in to fully acknowledge this pregnancy, let alone celebrate and trust my body. I am not showing at all and bloating has gone down. Booking a private ultrasound in a couple of weeks, which feels so far away! Any advice or even validation in the comments to help cope would be appreciated! Pregnancy after loss is such a b*tch. 😭

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4 days ago

i had miscarriages in october. haven’t gotten pregnant yet but this is my biggest fear . enjoy your rainbow baby and relax. I wish you all the best

4 days ago

I am 17 1/2 weeks currently and still struggling to tell people. I am just starting to really show. I love this baby. But PAL is rough! I love the wish for a weekly ultrasound!

last week

This is literally my story too! I was pregnant for the first time, lost the pregnancy in November and became pregnant again in December. I'm about to hit my 14th week and I'm only just starting to feel good about it now. Like maybe its really happening? I feel like it's a super valid reaction to be worried, skeptical and to have a delayed response to the joy of being pregnant. What you went through was tremendously difficult. I found that the closer I was getting to my 2nd trimester, the more worried I became. I felt so much pressure to make it to the next stage. For me, It did help to see the baby and hear from my OB that everything was okay. If I had it my way though, I'd have an ultrasound every week just to be sure! I truly hope that the private ultrasound gives you some peace. And try to trust that the joy will come - whether it's in a couple weeks, months or after the baby is born do not feel bad about however long that may take you! Sending you my best!