Oh my heart hurt reading this. Firstly you do not have anything to be ashamed of as kirsty above said you've given your husband and yourself one of the greatest gifts. Understandably you're upset as your body is not what it once was, but if you've only tried once in 5 months it may have changed again. Have you spoken with your husband about how you're feeling? Perhaps he's feeling at a loss as well as to how to help you. Be kind to yourself, remind yourself what a beautiful woman you are. Your body created and birthed life, you're bloody amazing. When I had sex the first time after birth it was as you said slightly looser, but I did it again and it wasn't. Don't let the fear of the first time put you off, speak with your husband and see if you can build confidence to try again. If you still struggle perhaps seeing a gp might help? Xx
Firstly there is nothing to feel ashamed about. You've just given yourself and your husband the greatest gift ❤️ have you tried pelvic floor exercises? Doing it throughout the day? Having a baby is the greatest gift but also the hardest. Myself and husband have a 2 year old and 5 month old so you can imagine what our time together is like...non exisistent 🤦🏼♀️ we try and sneak 5 minutes (don't have time for longer lol) to have a bit of fumble. It's also worth noting to try a different position or 2 Please don't be too hard on yourself. I've had 4 children vaginally and became very paranoid after but I try not to think about it too much because it can put a dampener on it x
You’re not alone! First time we had sex again was about 7 weeks PP and i thought I was ready. I was not! I hated every second of it and like you, I was not how I used to be down there. My partner told me he didn’t notice but of course he did however he did say it didn’t put him off. What did put him off was that he could see that I wasn’t enjoying it and he tried his best to get me to relax and have fun. Fast forward 3/4 months of doing pelvic exercises we’ve both noticed a different. Still not what I was but at least we’re both enjoying it again.