TTC had made me miserable!!!!!

Period due tomorrow. And I test 11,12,13 and all negative. Here I am, 17 cycle in, at a war between my body and I. Sometimes I want to know if this even worth it. Done so much tests, supplements, breaks in between, am just over it. Am 31, people keep telling me, ohh so so, got pregnant 10 years in, or pregnant at 40. Yes, I get it, but what's wrong with me wanting different. I didn't make a decision to start at 40, I made a decision to start 30. I felt ready at 30. Am 31, i am mentally exhausted, I don't want more months of negative, hoping, faithful praying for another God knows when. If you made it till the end bless your heart. Cause am venting and rambling
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TTC is making me feel insane as well. I’ve wanted kids since I was a kid myself but just finally found the right partner at 35. Now at 37 we’ve been TTC for over a year… had one chemical pregnancy a few months ago and I both do and don’t want to hope each cycle. I also was ov testing from day 10-17 and never had a positive… yet at day 25 in my cycle, I’m so hopeful and hating myself for it All that is to say… I know there are a lot of differences in our situations, but I feel you. Hugs.

@Laura I completely get you. That's another story. In my cultuur, am starting old 😐. I was busy trying to get my life in order. Am in the crossword, scientific am not to bad. Culturally am starting to late. Wondering am I too old. Did you get test run?

It’s so hard with all the outside opinions. “Too old” is also something I’m trying to shake mentally. Yes, my husband and I have both had some testing done and nothing is “wrong” so we should be able to conceive naturally. And we did, once… but it sounds like a lot of people got pregnant again immediately after a chemical pregnancy and the next one was successful. It’s been 3 cycles for me since the chemical pregnancy and still no luck.

@Laura ohh my this pop up. And chuckling a little because I am currently 25 weeks pregnant. I have zero idea when I wrote this. Peanuts only said 5 months ago. Probably Mei beginning of mt cycle bc at the end of my cycle I found out am pregnant

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