What a lonely time.

I dunno how I have managed the last 8-9 months or soo. Going a bit stir crazy I guess. I am currently on maternity leave until last week of august, I don’t want to really go back to work as I love enjoying family time. I spoke to my hv about not having a social circle or being able to talk openly and having a friend second month of having lb. I suffered with PND the first 5 months with my lb and possibly a few months before having my lb too. My lb is 7 months, I go to group regularly for the last 4 months and I still feel I haven’t got anyone to really talk to. I don’t speak to my family often. (Every month or so) also when I do go to my partners family just for interactions, I always end up looking after my partners niece and the Nan/ aunt are always busy with there bits.
I have tried talking to other mummy’s, trying to build relationships with people. I am quite open and genuinely listen to other mummy’s. I just haven’t built any relationships even after asking for numbers and arranging coffee meet ups.. My partner is great at listening. I don’t think he fully understands, he has a great family network. He works 8-6 every day and speaks to a lot of people throughout the day. We have his 2 children over 3 days a week too, which we look after. I never really get adult time and I if I do it genuinely is on my own (gym an hour or 2 a week).

I am lonely, I feel I don’t have that safe vent space and felt just left to get on with things. I’m mentally and emotionally exhausted.

I honestly don’t really know what I want out of this but I guess it’s just to express how I feel because I genuinely feel that I can’t voice how I feel as I don’t feel understood.

in our community

NHS job

Anyone work for the NHS and does 12 hour shifts? How do you work around childcare and your partners job?

He has no respect for anything to do with me.

Husband and I decided to separate 3 days ago. I've been sleeping on the floor in the kids room, and we both have to stay in the same apartment for a while. He wont stop pushing little things and I am reaching my limit. Photos in comments

Toddlers

How often are your toddlers asking for food? My oldest who is 3 just finished a whole plate of food and not even 10 minutes later he’s requesting more food. I know he’s going through a growth spurt, but how do you respond to this.

Is this normal?

Is it just my husband that does this? He is able to work from home via his computer and in the mornings and evenings he is on there doing his job. When he is done for the day he tends to stay in the room and either play video games or watch something. He will occasionally come out and play with the girls for a few minutes and that’s it but when I really need him he says he is busy. My daughters are both 1 year old now and I am just wondering how much involvement should he have with them now?
Idk if this is the norm or not…..

Identity crisis?

Am I the only sahm who feels like they have lost their identity??? I don’t make money for my family, when I used to make great money. But I refuse to drop my under a year old baby off with strangers.
My husband works so much. But I have no control over bringing in money and I’m a control freak type of person! I feel l like I’m losing my grip because we are kind of broke, but day care would only eat up my income anyways! So what’s the point. I’m a workaholic and now I’m just a twitching bum.
I wish I could work from home but so far that’s a fake dream. I’m almost 9 months pp, and I just need to know these awful mood swings and depression will end soon! Send wine!

Saying NO to buying toys etc

5 year old is getting really envious of others. He is obsessed with items that other kids have at school. I am pestered daily to buy these things in a different style when we already have 3 others. I have seen parents just buying stuff their kid likes which I don't necessarily agree with even when i can afford it. How do you deal with it?