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Body image.. feeling shit.
I suppose I kind of want to vent.
I'm 25 weeks pregnant with second and have 1.5 years old toddler.
I had felt crap about my body since end of pregnancy with first baby. I feel I have really low self confidence and since having first baby I have had trust issues with partner.i had naturally felt more anxious body-wise with putting on weight second time around like even more so. ,I did get back to pre body weight in between but I feel so crap and my self confidence and esteem really all took a hit since having kids. I feel I ask my partner stupid questions and he doesn't reassure me and openly admits to other women being good looking cause I asked him and he doesn't want to lie cause the issue was him lying. And saying you can tell these women put effort into themselves.
I feel I do put some effort into myself but by him saying this...like is my effort not as much? Is it less? I just feel crappy. I got my nails, hair and eyebrows and even wax done before our holidays to make myself feel better (I never get a wax or nails done)
and did my own tan....but it only felt good for a bit I felt none of it even made a huge difference tbh. Still felt less than other women but yet presentable.
It just all feeds into me hating myself even though I know I'm "presentable" I'd the word I use to describe myself.
I'm a UK size 10 and still am in pregnancy clothes whereas at this stage with baby no1 I was a 12 and had to buy size 14 pregnancy clothes at the end. So I am trying to look after myself I just feel it's not enough and now with the warmer months coming in I feel dread of loads of women wearing half nothing and feeling bad about myself.
I also don't feel I would get attention off other men (not that I want it) but I only want it off my husband but I feel I'm sure he gives other women attention and I would just feel sleezy if I did. I really don't know where my mind is at....I just feel crap and hurt and not looking forward to becoming a whale. I don't like comparing myself but I can't help it at the moment.
Is anyone else in the same boat or has been?
It’s so hard to be pregnant and it’s a big change in all the things I’m sure you don’t give yourself the credit you deserve your a mom and a superhero I only have one child rn and I look up to anyone who has more than one because I’m not there yet and it’s hard to be a woman/ parent so I know your feeling all the negative things rn but try and think of the positive things too even if that’s a little thing like painting your nails or trying a new mascara! Just try and give yourself credit it’s so hard to be a mom sometimes and we all need a little pick me up I give myself positive pep talks! Just do some y that makes u feel good and stick to it! You’d beautiful & awesome don’t forget that!