Turns out it is exactly the same as everyone else, and my husband is not more special then anyone else’s. I am taking this way better than I thought I would once I got confirmation, because I am still here I guess.
Anyways please make dua for me, because I think I am genuinely not ok. I don’t know what to do at all.
Please give it some time and make dua to make ur marriage filled with happiness and love. Everyone's marriage has its ups and downs. It's definitely not an easy road, but with patience comes great reward. The one thing that helped me out is focusing on myself and doing that makes me happy.