I find it really funny how when husband wants to be jerked off I’ll do it without hesitation but when I want to have sex it’s like it’s too late or we will see or whatever other excuse. It hurts like really bad. I’ve lately had fantasies of a celeb as well and feel really guilty and can’t get rid of them no matter how hard I try. I don’t know whether I’m getting these fantasies because I’m not getting pleasured or don’t feel sexually desired by my husband. I don’t want to talk to him and tell him I’m getting these fantasies but it just hurts that when I want something sexually from him he can’t give it straight away like I can. He likes me to dress sexy as well which I do for him.. I don’t know I guess I just needed to rant this out and have confirmation that I’m not crazy but I feel like I need help.. 🥺 I feel so insecure now.