Postpartum depression and anxiety

My baby is 3 months and 1 week I’m currently dealing with postpartum depression and anxiety (first child) it’s the scariest thing I’ve ever experienced. I feel like I’m just living in my brain like my thoughts just won’t stop, I can’t sleep because even in my sleep it still feels like my mind is awake I get anxious being left alone in the house because I feel so disconnected from reality I always feel like anything can go wrong. There are days I don’t want to get out of bed because I don’t wanna deal with the reality of feeling like this it’s exhausting I feel like I just want to crawl out of my own body and not feel this way, just wanted some advice if anyone has ever experienced this and things I can do to overcome it because I don’t want to take medication in fear of it might make it worse

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Take it from someone who waited way too long to ask for help, talk to your doctor and give the meds a try. I’ve been on them for about a month and a half and I’m finally happy again. I’m making my bed again in the morning and keeping the house tidy doesn’t seem like this huge thing to overcome. It’s so important to take care of yourself ♥️ at least have the conversation with your OB

Please don’t be opposed to medication. I know it’s scary but I know soooo many first time moms they have gone through the same thing and felt so much relief after finally getting on meds. It isn’t for forever. I think first time moms are much more prone to ppd and ppa. I had it until I stopped pumping with my first. I didn’t experience at all with my second and I’m so grateful for it. It made the experience so much different but it’s caused me to grieve what I feel like I lost with my first.

I had it bad with ppa with this baby too (3 months) i didn’t want to take medication either but finally was open to it bc i didn’t want it to get to the point of being debilitating and i live alone with my little one. I hardly slept as well. I’ve been on medication for a month or two now and it’s been a complete turnaround! Don’t be afraid to get help! I know it can cause anxiety thinking about what if it makes it worse, but what if it makes things better?! And you don’t have to do it long term.

@Alejandra I’m so tired and just want to wake up and not feel like this I just want to feel in my own body and not in my head

@Ali it’s so exhausting you just wanna it to shut up or sometimes I wish I can walk away from it I keep wondering what it would be like to feel “normal “ it feels like forever

Theraphy has helped me a lot. My baby is two months and I was dealing with ppd as well. I was so exhausted I just wanted to die. Being able to talk with a therapist without feeling judged was a game changer.

I struggle with this too. I had done my first child PPD without medication. This time I knew I needed something. I think each mom and each pregnancy/after pregnancy is different! I went with the safest medication I could find. I also started therapy & got on this group to find mommas like me. I have depression and anxiety normally, even worse PPD &PPA. You’re not alone! If you need to talk reach out. I live in my head, it’s exhausting. I won’t make any medical recommendations. I will just be here for support, vents, and convo.