Should I continue to ghost my bd or let him be part of my baby’s life?

I met my bd on hinge around April this year. I was living with my mother and caring for her and my half siblings for a few months, and wanted to have fun in the city in my free time. We went on a handful of dates and only had sex about 3 times. First couple dates were super fun I really thought we had potential but I didn’t get to fully know who he was as he didn’t share much about his past and seemed to be a slow burner. That it’s something that bothered me and I said to him, which he then told me that he’s not good with his words and prefers to keep things for himself. I was already bored of this man. He asked me to be his girlfriend multiple times and I said no cause I didn’t think he was ready. He seemed less experienced than me and wanted to bag me when he couldn’t even do a simple good morning text, or how’s your day, nothing! In June, I found out I was pregnant. Came as a shock and I was terrified as we barely knew each other, plus we already had a few petty arguments before going on a dates because he couldn’t do basic communication like only texting 3am type stuff, going hours/days without saying a word, always moaning about car problems, work problems, basically got bored of hearing him constantly complaining about life, the initial “kind guy” mask fell off, he seemed miserable and depressed. Always pointing fingers and calling me a brat or spoiled for asking for basic shit like this one time at a restaurant that I asked to swap places cause it was a really nice view and he was like “no, why does everyone have to do everything you want”, went on a rant saying why does everything gotta be my way blablabla quiet frankly that’s when I noticed this man might hate me, always with an attitude and making sly comments about how easy I got it in life. Going out with him became awkward, I just remember wanting to cut it short as he was not the same person he presented himself to be in the first couple dates. Very irritable and super down even when I was still tryna have fun with him have a good time together, I swear even requesting to change music or connect my phone to the car was an issue I really didn’t get wtf was his problem. Long story short, after not seeing him for weeks we meet so I can tell him the news. It doesn’t go well we argue in public again, I told him I wasn’t even sure if I’m gonna keep the baby as he’s inconsistent and constantly picking fights with me plus I didn’t see us being compatible at all! Oh and we both Taurus very stubborn ppl. My mom and her husband weren’t very happy when I told them the news especially because my bd is Muslim and they couldn’t have “influencing their younger children as this is a Christian house” they said. They also don’t believe in abortion so they just told me to go back to my city. So I packed my bags and left as things were getting heavy and I didn’t know what to go. I stayed with an old friend I had in town for a few weeks, I was basically homeless as my old flat was being rented out as airbnb for the summer so I had no where to go plus I wasn’t working cause I was taking care of my family cooking and cleaning day and night for them just to get kicked out after. I explained the situation to bd, I asked him for help, and all he did was deflect saying “at least you got a friend you can stay at” then I eventually asked him money for food and meds and would say yes but then would’nt really respond for days. Or whenever he did he would cuss me out for calling him multiple times, then transfer 100 like it was some big favor. Not to mention I was constantly nauseous and throwing up almost everyday without those meds 1st trimester was absolutely awful I couldn’t keep food in, lost so much weight. My brother eventually sends me money to buy a flight and get out of there. I was in a homeless shelter for a bit now I got government housing which I feel super blessed. I’m now 35 weeks so just in time for baby. Basically cut contact with my bd as we continue to argue, he refused to help me out with money or whatsoever and when I told him I was back in my city he just said “how was your flight? And I’m glad you are with your brother and not in some friends house” lol absolute nonsense. I don’t understand how can a person be so mean in one hand and in another say he wanted to be a family ?? I told him this situation was causing me a lot of anxiety and depression and that I felt very lonely, there was no point continuing to argue every time we try to talk so I said I’d contact him when the baby is born as I don’t want keep stressing during my pregnancy. Best thing I did, my life turned out great since I cut communication with him back in October. I now have my own home and support for me and the baby. My older brother and sister have been there for me like no one else ever, they’re real excited for me and baby despite the fact that my bd is an asshole. Now I don’t know if I should continue ghosting him and raising my baby on my own or give my bd a chance to be part of his life? I feel like he doesn’t deserve this kid and I don’t want my son to ever think he wasn’t wanted, to ever think why this man only comes to see him twice a year I honestly don’t know what’s the best approach. He hasn’t shown any consistency so far plus I now live hours away from him. I was raised by a single dad, my mom left when I was 3 and only got closer to her now in my twenties. Can’t help to feel that she chose her new family before me and my siblings from her previous marriage,I don’t want my son to feel unwanted like I do basically xx
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Up to you, the baby will become curious if who their dad is no matter what, but only introduce them when you feel comfortable xx

@Kate the idea of it absolutely terrifies me right now but I totally get what you mean eventually my son will ask questions. Even though me and bd aren’t compatible I also don’t want to rob him of experiencing fatherhood idk I’ll wait till I’m comfortable xx

Yeah wait till you feel ready , I don't think you need to even leave him alone with him you could all just go to the park together when he's a bit older xx

@Kate yeah to be fair I’m back in England, he lives in France same city as my mom. I can just wait till I’m comfortable enough and he’s a bit bigger to introduce them. Back in October before I cut contact he said he wanted to come visit and be here for the birth which I immediately refused because all we do is buttheads and I was tired of arguing. So I can’t help but feel like I’m being quite harsh idk xx

Oh no you're definitely not being harsh, you should only be around people you trust and feel relaxed around at the birth and if he ain't it then he ain't it.

Im in a similar situation as you, as me and my family are christian and he is muslim. From what im going through my genuine piece of advice is to have people around you, you trust. Regardless if he is the father, if he couldnt show up in ur time of need and making comments etc to you during your pregnancy then most likely he will try n do the same with you n the child. Do what is best for u n the baby and when your child askes who their father is tell them but with boundaries❤️

@Kate thanks hun, this helped me clear my head a little xx

I'm glad best of luck with everything lovely xx

@Nicole you’re right, he didn’t show compassion any sort of empathy for me throughout pregnancy, my most fragile moments, so what do I even expect smh… I need to stop making excuses for him and work with the facts. Like part of me sees no point involving him again if it’s just to bring disruption and stress to my environment and another part still has faith in him being a better person a decent father for my son, that maybe if given another chance he would come correct idk like I also feel that I should extend some grace not rob him of the experience of fatherhood and if comes with the same behaviour then it’s “at least now I’m sure I’m making the right decision” type of thing xx

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