Am I the asshole/what do i do?!
So today my other half left…..
(Little back story) Since having our son we’ve been constantly hit with battle after battle. We became homeless, living on an air bed in a fam member’s 1bd apartment, I’ve been not getting hours at work, (which I’m now unable to get to), our finances have been hit after hit, our car yesterday (day of my sons party of course) decided to blow its transmission, which at this point had already put the cherry on top, (mind yall this isn’t all that happened much more has too) out of the 65 ppl supposed to show 20 showed up to the party 🙄 which hit home a lot cuz for my siblings baby shower in November the whole fam showed up. (Mind u I didn’t get a baby shower so everyone was like oh first bday oh first bday yea what bs that was)
Well within the hard times it’s put a huge strain on our situation and relationship. We’ve say up all night long talking about what to do where to go how to do things. Which brings us to today….
Today my son officially turned one, we were supposed to do our own thing just the 3 of us, (mind u in my brain at this point is jus pushing through trying to jus simply have a good day, and week cuz my boys 1, I got a gift for my other half for Valentine’s Day (nothing crazy but something I put a lot of thought in) and jus trying to make the most of it) well we get up we’re cuddling he goes to the store and come back and tells me his family is on his way from 3hrs away to come get him…. As u could imagine it sent me… my heart collapsed to my stomach, and everything went black… I asked him why?! What?! When?! How could u jus leave?! What about us?!
In 3 years we’ve never been apart… he tells me he’s going there to set up a life for the 3 of us, and have us come down later, but we’ve never not done something together so I was upset at the fact that he’s leaving 3hrs away with no car, i have no car here either, we can’t see eachother for however long but supposed to still be together and all this. Y’all idek how I’m getting to work now I’m worried cuz out of no where my man decides he’s grabbing clothes and jus leaving on our sons birthday to “make a better life for us” without us.. why today of all days?! How to u leave your partner and kid jus like that, and say it’s ok we’ll be ok, but we’re 3hrs apart and carless/technically homeless/no way to work…. I’ve been a sahm until 2 month ago, and now suddenly I’m a half?! Single mom??? Idek what to call it…. And he questioned me why I’ve been bawling all day?! Like idek what to say and think rn, idek what I’m doing rn….