UPDATE

So after the initial argument that lasted in silence all night, I decided to go to my OB appointment alone in the morning because we still weren't on good terms, and I wanted him to get some rest before work. I also don't like doing baby related things together if we aren't joyful, and focused on the happiness of having our baby boy because I don't want to look back on those memories as bad. I went to my appointment and picked up my prescription which gave me some time to think. I took a suggestion from one of the wonderful ladies in the comments of my last post, and brought up the idea of postponing the wedding. We were quiet, and awkward, but eventually he spoke up and calmly said, "I was thinking the same thing. I agree". I left him to lay back down and get mote rest before work, as I went into the bathroom to run myself a bath and hopefully relax a little. After starting the water, I looked in the mirror and just felt like a failure. Like I wasn't a good partner, daughter, or mother, and it felt like I had just lost the love of my life. Having to tell him I wanted to postpone the wedding felt like we broke up,and that broke me. I immediately started baling and crumbled to my knees as I cried into my sleeve to muffle my cries so he would not hear me because it felt like my life was falling apart at the seams. I didn't even hear the door when he opened it, but his hands fell onto my shoulders as my head was tucked into my knees. I don't like crying in front of people so I tried to stop, but him consoling me, made me cry just that much harder. He squatted down next to me and just held me. He picked me up off of the ground all while not saying a single word, and just held me while I cried. He waited until a few minutes after I was done crying to finally let me go before kissing me on the forehead and leaving the restroom. I gathered myself, and after a few minutes, as sort of a way to " make amends" I gave him his Valentines Day gift a little early. I went back in the living room to him. We exchanged gifts, laughter, love, and apologies. Even in my darkest time, while we weren't on good terms, he was there for me. He consoleded me, held me, and told me he loved me with no words. Right as I was starting to wondering if we had almost lost our love for each other, he reminded me again. I love this man with my whole heart and we are doing much better. Sometimes, the feelings from pregnancy can make you feel the craziest of things, and the strongest emotions, good or bad. But I am thankful to my partner for supplying the understanding and support I need, even at times we as a couple are not at our best. Thank you all for your support and love! You all got me through a very rough night and I cannot express how appreciative I am! I love having other women who understand, to talk to and confide in! 🥰🥰🥰