Hospital bound

I feel this!! I was the same! Waited 12 years for my baby boy, had him through ivf and also had placenta previa. Spent my whole pregnancy in and out of hospital with bleeds and was put back on progesterone pessaries for short cervix. I had a massive bleed and they decided enough was enough and they delivered him early. I then haemorrhaged and was really poorly and my baby boy had to stay in the nicu for 2 weeks. It took me so long to get over everything we went through to have our baby boy and I was always very teary and felt robbed of my pregnancy that we waited so long for! I feel everything you’re going through and I’m sending you all my love and support. I can’t make anything better for you but once you’re holding your baby and you are both safe and well it will only get better from then! 🩷🩷

Ah bless you, I feel for you, just try to keep in your head that it’s the baby that you want and that you’re going to get out of this, all this other stuff is sad that you can’t experience and it is unfair but the baby getting out safe is the priority so just hold that in your mind, sometimes when I’m feeling really sad I try and think about people who are actually worse off than me and that’s not to say your pain isn’t valid but at times it can be useful to put things into perspective and make you feel better Pregnancy is shit it really is and so much crap can happen but when you have that baby in your arms, nothing else is going to matter, try keep in mind that you really shouldn’t have long until bubba is here either, you’re SO close to the end! Keep staying strong, you got this!! X

@Charlotte how many weeks were you when you had your boy? I'm sorry you had a rough time. I know I'm not alone in this hence posting to here from those who made it to the other side. I know it will be worth it and I'll do what's needed but just when you're staring at the 4 hospital walls day in and out it's so hard to stay focused on the end goal. Especially when waited a life time to be pregnant and now not get to be pregnant anywhere but a hospital room. It's meant to be my baby shower Sunday and again shouldn't be a big deal, but when you've had infertility and waited for these milestones it just so is 😔 x

@Cass I know I'm fortunate to be in this position as much as I'm moaning. Like I've got friends who have lost late in pregnancy and those who can't get pregnant (me til now) but part of me is like FFS. 😂🙈 Like whyyyyy. It's just so rotten. I think the cabin fevers getting to me a bit too. I totally agree perspective is such a powerful thing. I keep trying to tell myself this time next month will be so diff but a month is a long time at the same time 🙈 xx

@Kayleigh I get it! I had my times of sitting there and feeling so down, crying and so fed up! I wish I could make you feel better because I remember it so well. My son is now 14 months and is just the best little thing ever and every lonely day sat in hospital was definitely worth it. You’ll come out of the other side too. He was delivered at 33+4 after a massive bleed. I had my baby shower on the Saturday, started bleeding and went into hospital on Sunday tea time and they delivered him Monday lunch time xx

Was he ok when he was born? It's so scary for you to have went through all that. Glad your attitude is what it is now and it sounds like you did process it all and got there now? I know it will be worth it. I said to my friend tonight just need to suck it up and she's like but you've had to suck a lot up and it's unfair and that's what kinda triggered me tonight, because it's true without playing my own little violin ha. I ended up in high dependency last week as well with reduced oxygen to my lungs on top of it all so it's been a few weeks 🥴 x

@Kayleigh he was okay, he was struggling with his breathing so he was taken to nicu quite soon after being born and he spent 2 weeks there. He is now a cheeky little character and has caught up massively with his growth 😳🤣🩵. I won’t lie, it was the worst time of my life! Having to leave my baby in the hospital just broke me! I stayed strong and fought through everything and once I had him home everything just hit me and I was a blubbering mess! It’s not fair on us, it’s really not! We got dealt a shit hand but what can we do? We need to carry on being strong! We were robbed of our pregnancies but that’s a teeny tiny bit of our baby’s journeys and we have so many more happy times with them. It’s natural to feel how you’re feeling and I just hope one day you’ll be at peace with what has happened during your pregnancy xx

Big bear hugs 💜

Uch the wee soul, both of you! I can't imagine having to leave him. So hard for you! I got steroid injections last weekend for their lungs so hoping they've had a wee boost worst case (I say they cause don't like it and don't know the sex haha). Well this is it ❤️ it isn't their main chapter as much as it's a traumatic time for us. Xx