I’m so sorry for your loss. You went through something awful and it’s perfectly normal and totally valid for you to have these feelings. Grief after loss comes in waves and discussing it with spouse or even with someone else can help. I have done therapy which helped me so much of my anxiety’s after multiple miscarriage’s. Anxiety and depression leads to short temper and my husband and I would fight as well over random things because anything could set me off. Once I was able to process all I was feeling better is when we were able to get back to our old selves. I feel like as mothers we process it all so different and even though it’s their loss too I don’t think they will ever feel it all on the same level as a mom. Having our rainbow baby was wonderful and I tried to remain hopeful during the pregnancy but it was hard at times that nagging feeling this good change but I had to remind myself is that this was a totally different pregnancy totally different outcome.
@Gennie I feel extremely lonely because none of my friends understand and do not whats "normal" and whats not when it comes to grief plus depression and ptsd added on top of everything... Seems like he just wants to take the easy route and kick me out of the house and unalive himself.. its so beyond hurtful and its also so scary when I am expecting a child in 5 months. I told him if he wants me gone then he will never see me or his child ever again
I lost my son at 36 weeks pregnant and I’m currently 18 weeks pregnant with a girl! I am so incredibly sorry for you loss and I’m here to tell you I completely understand. Everyday I’m scared. I try not to think about it too much but the truth is it’s not gonna be the same again. It’s not fair but we won’t be able to enjoy pregnancy as if we’ve never experienced loss again.. But we can decide to not let our pain and fear steal our joy. Our babies (BOTH OF THEM) deserve our joy. ❤️ Keep fighting on! I pray for nothing but rainbows in 2024!❤️
I wish I had some advice for you. I suffered a misscarriage around July of last year. It was extremely hard on me emotionally and physically. I'm currently now pregnant with our second and I'm 33 weeks. I get how hard it is to lose a baby. But, what gets me through it is that I believe my first baby sent me this healthy little girl I have inside me because they knew I needed it. And even though she won't be able to necessarily fill the emptiness and sadness I have from losing my first baby, I know she will bring so much happiness and joy into my life.