he thought about cheating

i want to start this by saying i have always thought of my fiance as being extremely loyal and devoted towards me. he deleted his entire following on social media, always calmed my worries or didn’t even get into situations where i would question him, and has been there for me since day one. he was cheated on by his last girlfriend and he told me everything to do with it and how it affected him. we’ve obviously have had plenty of talks over the time of our relationship about cheating and boundaries with other people and had come to the same thought process of hating cheaters. so the other night my fiance told me that he had thought about cheating on me sometime between february and march. he told me that the lack of sex we were having, which was basically nonexistent at the time, was really affecting him mentally and he had the thought of seeking someone out to get that intimacy. he has told me in the past and again recently that while different things like being verbally affectionate, doing acts of kindness, and cuddling do show him love, having sex is much more intimate to him and shows him how much i love him. he told me how he talked to his older coworker thats married with two kids if he ever thought about cheating on his wife which his coworker said yes in the beginning after their first kid but not anymore since he’s understood better how to communicate and show his love for his wife better. ive been trying to be understanding of his perspective. we were barely having any sex until recently, like going up to 2-3 months at a time with no sex or only once in that time. ive been constantly busy and exhausted with our baby (9 months) and just last month got him on a normal schedule sleeping through the night. i know i’ve neglected my relationship and my fiance in trying to focus on my baby. i know we’ve been distant and havent had much time to just spend with each other. i know what lead to him thinking i didnt care about him as much or didnt love him as much. but im REALLY struggling with how my entire perception of him has changed. i thought of him as completely faithful and loyal to me and would never look outside our relationship for some instant gratification. but its really starting to take a toll on me and ive told him about this, and he’s accepted that and told me i have every right to be upset/pissed/sad/disappointed in him. i just feel like utter shit about myself especially since ive had some body image issues since having my baby (which he also reassured me it had nothing to do with the way i look, it was all just him). if i could get some sort of advice from people it would really help. i dont need negative comments about how he “probably did cheat” or that i should dump him. i trust him and him even telling me on his own without me even prompting him to just goes to show that he’s still somewhat of the man i thought of him as.
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Did he do anything at all other than just telling you he felt like it at one point?

@Emera no he said he had the thought about it because he felt neglected and unloved from the lack of sex. and that he had essentially asked himself if cheating was even worth it, which he said no since he would lose everything from doing that.

As much as the feelings piece I’m sure rocked you to your core, I’d be gentle with him. The thought didn’t lead to any action or even wandering eyes so I would be understanding of that piece if you can

I think kudos for him for being honest and communicating with you. It must have been a hard thing to say - but ultimately if he feels that way it’s much better to try and work it out as a couple rather than stay silent and either cheat or break up. I really don’t think it will Jane anything to do with your post baby body or anything like that - more just a case of growing apart because of the strain on your both of having a little one which can absolutely be worked on. So I know this must’ve been so hard to hear - but I actually really respect him for feeling he can be honest and wanting to work things through. That really shows he loves you xx

Totally feel you mamma on this, I’ve got some previous experience on this. My approach has been, we all have needs and its not black and white, making him feel bad isn’t solving anything but equally it’s hard to see him the same when he’s let you down, there’s no getting around it. One approach is to say to him, look if you feel that way again, please tell me, I’m not here to judge but I don’t want to be the last to know, and let’s work through whatever it is that’s making you feel like you want to go outside our relationship. If he needs more excitement/sex then talk about how that can be done through your relationship. Sexting while he’s at work could be fun or something which works for you guys! Feel free to DM if you need any support. Keep you head up xxx

yea while it did shake my perspective and trust of him, i still do respect him for even telling me. i also think it was mainly just everything going on with the baby and us both being exhausted from our separate roles and neglecting each other. i think we’ve finally gotten to the point where we can start focusing more on each other and communicate more openly.

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