What do I do?!

So on Saturday night I had more than a few drinks and when I woke up on Sunday I don’t remember the full night. We were at home and my partner said I tended to our 14 month old as he was having a bad night. I don’t remember doing this and feel so guilty that I did whilst drunk. The main issue I have is that my head flies to the worst case scenario and then somehow convinces me that I’ve done it. In this situation, I started thinking about shaken baby syndrome, and what if I shuck him as he was so unsettled. Just to clarify, I have no recollection of doing this and I have no evidence that it happened. I just can’t stop worrying about it.
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Is your baby acting in any way that would suggest he may have been shaken? Remember, intrusive thoughts often go to the worst places. Was your partner also intoxicated?

As long as your baby is well in himself and not acting out of character. It’s easy to panic when we can’t remember but I’m sure he will be ok. These things happen, as long as feeding well, plenty of wet nappies etc

@Tiffany they had had a drink but not to the same extent as me, said they wouldn’t have let me near the baby if they thought I was a risk. He seems happy enough but then the over thinking starts, he was a little bit sleepier than normal yesterday, expected as he had a bad nights sleep, also can be a sign of shaken baby, there’s no logic winning in my head at the moment 🤦🏻‍♀️

I am so sure that your baby will be fine. There is no way to go back in time and do things differently so try and be kind to yourself. These types of thoughts can snowball and really take over at times. Just keep an eye on him and give him lots of love. I know that horrible feeling of dread after a heavy night really does Make it all so much worse.

@Tiffany honestly the snowballing is real today, all I can think of is taking him to A&E for a CT scan but what would I say, I would look like a crazy person!

Anxiety is awful, we always go to worst case scenario. The fact you feel guilty I don’t think you would of shaken your baby to the point it was harmful. You sound like a very caring mother, don’t be hard on yourself.

I agree with Jen. Well put ❤️

I don’t think that A&E would help anyway, as your little boy isn’t presenting any symptoms. I know this is personal, but have you been suffering with these types of intrusive thoughts at other occasions. It is very normal and I have met lots of mummas who also deal with these challenges x

@Tiffany I have them when I can’t remember parts of my nights due to alcohol, but this is the first time it’s about my boy rather than me 😔😔

I know, A&E aren’t just going to do a CT scan on him just because I’m worried about something that there’s no proof of happening 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

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