I think I may have PPD/PPA?
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I’m so sorry. Good for you for realizing, definitely get help. Your OB or your primitive care doctor should be able to direct you to a therapist or a psychiatrist. I can call the number on the back of my insurance card and they’ll send me a list of therapists in my area who take insurance…
Yes, that sounds like ppd. I had it in the early months and it was like that. Theraphy helped a lot.
It’s ok to not be ok sometimes. It’s taken me weeks of therapy and meds to accept that, I know it’s hard but you gotta be kind to yourself. I too spent the first 6 months in baby bliss! Everything was great! me and baby were nothing but healthy and happy and were surrounded by love and support. Then, I started having intrusive thoughts. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. I spent weeks on a doom loop thinking something bad was going to happen to my daughter until I had so much anxiety I couldn’t eat, sleep, think, or function. I legit thought I was going to die of fear and shame. Two months later, I’m in therapy and on meds for anxiety and pocd and I’m starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know it’s hard but don’t be afraid to seek help, call your OB and let them know you are struggling because it’s common… you aren’t a failure and you aren’t alone ❤️
Yes! All of this is very relatable. I just had a bunch of bloodwork done because I don't feel like myself and are struggling. My son cries and I go into full blown anxiety. My mood has felt like I'm on edge all the time. Crying.. period is every 20 days now. The guilt, shame, and feeling like a failure despite me doing my absolute best even during these challenging days when all I want to do is stay in bed but can't.. I feel so exhausted, yet at night I'm wide awake.. all night long.. morning comes and I want to sleep, but I can't bc my little one is up. So I totally understand you. I hope we start feeling better soon. It sucks living this way.