I can't take this anymore

I have a 2.5 yo son with a guy that didn't want anymore kids. There's a 9 year age difference between us, and he has 2 other kids who are 14 and 24. We've been trying to make it work since our son was born, but it seems like every time I think we're good, something happens. He's been going in and out of town to work on this house he bought to flip that's 3 hours away, so he'll be home for 5 or so days, and then gone got the same amount of time. When he's gone, we're great. Talk all day, every day. He misses me, he loves me, can't wait to come home, etc. And before you think it, no there's no hint that he's cheating. But when he comes home, it's so stressful. There's always so much to do as he has a disability that doesn't allow him to drive, so I'm the chauffer. I work full time, I'm the primary caregiver for our son, and of course I'm the only one attempting to take care of the house. So when you add constantly being on the go to the list, I'm exhausted. Since he came home earlier this week, between him and my son, I haven't had more than 5 hours of sleep in a night. I wanted to do something this weekend, but I'm so tired that I just used today to chill and relax. He decided to go hangout at his friend's house, and came home drunk, and just went off on me because he didn't have any food waiting for him when he got home. And even after I just took him to McDonald's at 12:30 am, he proceeded to go off on me, telling me that I'm boring and lame. That I get on his nerves, and that I'm not the type of woman he needs in his life. That I am too young to be stuck up in the house all the time. That he's better off without me. All of this because I bought myself, our son, and his youngest daughter McDonald's earlier and didn't buy any for him to have when he came home from hanging out...

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I can feel the sadness. My partner is 13 years older and lives overseas. We are very similar, when apart we miss each other a lot, but often find it hard to get into a routine... have you spoken to him about how you feel?

Your soul knows the answer to this. It will Hurt but it is the best for everybody. Your self love should be in first place.

What is his disability? I only ask because it seems that he appears to be picking and choosing how it affects his life to suit his needs/narrative?

@Carrie I've told him many times how I feel. I've even told him that it we could just get into a routine where we only run errands on certain days, that would be so much better for me. But it never works out that way.

@Incognito I just need a better routine. And I need a break sometimes. He knows these things.

@Jennifer he had a disease that gives him tunnel vision, night blindness, and even with glasses or contacts, he'll never be able to drive our even get to 20/20 vision.

@Jessica sad but true. He has already told you what he wants over and over. Its not easy to go through the emotions of it, but clearly, he's gone through them without you realising it.

Yeah I’m not buying it. How’s he able to flip houses and drink heavily yet not be fit enough to drive? Sounds to me like he’s full of shit.

@Jessica I've left before, multiple times actually. Always end up coming back...

@Jennifer you don't need to be able to see to eat or drink. He was at his friend's house drinking. He has vision, just not enough to ever drive. As far as flipping the house, he had a guy doing the majority of the work. He's really just supervising him, because the last person we attempted to have do the work unsupervised messed the house up instead of fixing it.

Are you married? Because if not, you’re highly unlikely to see any benefit financially from the flipping of the house. It sounds like you’re making excuses for his poor behaviour. Do whatever makes you happy, but it sounds like this isn’t it.

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