Feeling alone

I had an event recently and nobody showed up. Family & friends cancelled the day of & only 1 friend shown up the one who’s ALWAYS there for me. I’ve known her since we were babies & I thank God for her in my life, I should be more grateful, I say that I should be more grateful because I still feel so unloved & like I don’t matter to anyone excluding her & my boyfriend. It’s to the point where sometimes I question if I’m capable of truly loving someone because my feelings towards family is numbness & it feels unnatural to not feel love when thinking of family. I love my boyfriend and my childhood friend but even saying love feels so unnatural to me like how do I know I’m feeling love if I’ve never truly been loved growing up?

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So I can’t say I understand from personal experience but I understand from observation all of my friends growing up were so unloved by their parents I couldn’t understand why I still don’t know why but even I noticed it and wasn’t even their child but it did leave last effects on my friends most of them didn’t want real relationships because they were so disassociated with love that sex was just an act of pleasure and stress relief. I can understand why it’s hard to know love if you’ve never been loved but it sounds like your best friend loves you and your child loves you and I’m sure you love your child unconditionally the way you wish your family loved you so it’s not that you don’t know love or are unsure if you know you’re just hurt that you never had it but you should be they change for you child 💕 much love and support from this mama 🥰

@Bryar before I met my bf I had a hard time with lasting relationships also and sex was definitely something I felt was a stress reliever or for the man’s pleasure. I never felt connected through sex until I met my bf now I’m grateful to have a baby with him because everything feels so natural with him & his love for me is so strong in the beginning I couldn’t understand it but now it feels so good to know I’m capable of being loved. I guess these thoughts just pop up sometimes because my family triggers me when they do something to disappoint me. We plan to show our baby so much love and say it to him regularly so he never has to second guess it. Your words really helped me feel better & understand myself more so thank you 💙💙

You are so very welcome hun I hope you realize you are worth more than what your family has done you deserve to be loved and to love and it breaks my heart that they didn’t show you that. But that definitely doesn’t mean you did anything wrong or you aren’t deserving of love. We unfortunately can’t pick the parents we have if so the bad ones would have no children. I’m so glad you’ll be able to be better for your little one just be kind to yourself because the love you give your baby is the love you deserved growing up. ☺️

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