Struggling

Girl, all of what you said is UNDERSTANDABLE. And how you are feeling is so valid. I feel like this also and have felt no one get it, so I’m glad I’ve found someone that gets it! But such a shitty way to find someone. It’s such a headache right? Like you ofcourse appreciate the help and everything but you don’t get to be you properly? Like you don’t get to parent and “mum life” the way you want to whilst you are still at home

You can always message me, idk what to do either. But let’s be confused together xo

@Rhianna yesss like this is just not how I wanted to do things at all and it’s so frustrating He’s forced to stay in one too most of the time bc we have dogs and there is sm hair everywhere so I don’t let him out there and I just feel bad bc I can tell he gets bored

I totally get ya. I'm living at home as well, and I'm grateful for it but I get a 12ft by 15ft room for me, my daughter and soon to be son (due June 24) but it's connected to the garage and is the only way there from inside the house and the laundry area is right on the other side of my wall to the garage so ppl are constantly going in and out of a space that's supposed to give me a sense of privacy but it doesn't. I have to announce to the house (my grandpa, his gf, my mom, dad and 2 younger brothers) that I'm getting dressed and to not just charge in like they usually do. :( I'm also limited to using the restroom during the day for #1 only because there's 2 bathrooms, one is in my parents room, the other my grandpa has deemed "his" so if anyone is in there whne he needs it (like we're supposed to magically know when he's gotta pee) then he throws a full on tantrum. So I have to go #2 and showering at night when ppl are sleeping. And I can't take more than 10 min showers

I also have wic to pay for my daughters food bc my bd(not together) only send 300 for taking care of her which is not enough with how many diapers and formula cans she goes through and not to mentions she eats a ton and grows so fast, I'm constantly needing to go to the store to buy her things but my parents "aren't going to pay to raise a child that's not theirs" which I get but I can work because I give birth in about a month and a half so I'm stuck with what I've got. And then Im supposed to also do dishes and clean up evenif it's not mine or did I contribute to the mess I any way because I was gone to shop all day. But nobody will watch my daughter while I clean so it takes 20x as long as it should and she's crying 80% of the time because ei can hold her while doing the chores . I also don't have a car. My car is currently in my mom's name, my dad's car broke down so he takes it to work, my mom took my car as her own and so I can never leave without permission or unless I payfor gas.

Not to mention if I heaven forbid have an appointment with my Dr about my current pregnancy it's a fight to get someone to watch my daughter so I can go. Like please, just watch her for 1hrwhile I'm gone. She's not allowed back there and these visits are important. I'm also finding myself being sooo picky over what I can eat because everything makes me nauseous and there's never, I mean, never any foods I can snack on whether I want to eat it or not. I've been using wic to survive off of pb&js because my family only buys dinner groceries and nothing else. But I can't buy anything unless I'm going to use it the next day or my family eats it. Even if it's meant for my daughter. I got string cheese as a treat for my daughter and literally the next day they were all gone. :( I hate living here but I cant so anything in my current situation.

Sorry that was a lot but as a shortened version, I get it and could rant forever about it as I'm sure you could too. Sorry about your situation and I hope it gets better for you <3