Just here to vent

Posted before but remaining anonymous cos don’t want to out myself👀 I’m having such a difficult time and I am legit going insane if I don’t get 5 minutes to myself. My kids (2 under 2) are constant. 1 has too much energy, the other is a crier which I’ve posted before! My relationship is rocky as my partner has untreated ADHD which is becoming a huge issue as walking on egg shells constantly, never know what mood he’s going to be in, can’t say anything even in a jokey way as he can take it personally and freak out and stop talking to you even if there was no bad intentions. Everyday there is soemthing. I get so much more done and peacefully when it’s just me and the kids. Sometimes I’m wishing and waiting for him to go out as I can get soo much time when he’s not here and just so I can get peace and to just leave the kids to it once they’ve been fed, changed, cuddled, played with etc and are settled! I get basically next to no help from anyone and if I do it’s just drama in the mean time. I cried to my mum earlier on the phone asking if she could come up to mines, I wasn’t specific as to why but she said no because 1. She’s coming up tomorrow and 2. She was folding clothes 🤣🤣 she didn’t even ask why I was upset and crying, I just hung up. I dunno what to do at this point. I just feel lonely. The way I am acting and how little tolerance I have for anything, I have suspicions that I maybe have PPD? Or I’m just mentally, emotionally exhausted Anyone else ?