Trouble in Paradise🥺

I have a four month old surprise baby with a non-spiritual man. The baby was a total surprise and obviously meant to be here by his dad is nowhere near spiritual. He doesn’t believe in anything and I’ve actually stop practicing my craft. Feel like I’m losing myself and I’m wearing a mask all the time it’s depressing . We like a lot of the same things, but we don’t find the same things enjoyable. Like of course I prefer nature and a beautiful scenery to fulfill my spirit and he find pleasure in the club. And I hate the club. Tomorrow’s my birthday and he wanted to go out to the club and celebrate, but I told him being around. I hope to drunk people is not. I want to bring in my birthday. That’s not celebrating for me. I’m not sure if we’ll ever be able to find a common ground because he’s 10 years older than me and stuck in his ways. He likes what he likes and that’s OK. But being psychic and having to be around somebody, these things are draining to me. Idk what to do. I feel suffocated and I feel like I’m losing myself. I love and care for him. I don’t think he’s right for me.