Sending good energy ✨ I'm sorry you are so stressed. Just some ideas for a very active kiddo who constantly wants to play, my little one is also almost 5yrs. 1. Library events - story time is great, even if I have to sit with him in my lap, we practice sitting still and being tuned into the story teller and it feels good to do that. 2. Specific nature documentaries, bonus for any animal you like or remember, then you can relax but later talk about it ( butterflies life cycle, dogs whatever works ) what's your favorite butterfly? Tell me more about huskies? And you can just let them go ham telling you about it. 3. Online classes - we love some classes and play groups on outschool.com, my little one does need me to sit off camera but he gets to talk to the teacher, to a few other friends, and I can sit and check my phone if I need to or do emails or drink a nice cup of tea or coffee ( these so cost but it's pretty low cost for most fun ones )
I don’t have advice, I wish I could help. I wish I lived where you live. It sounds unbearable at times. Please know you’re not bad for feeling utterly burned out. It’s so normal to feel that way given the circumstances. If you ever need to just talk to someone I’m here. I know I don’t come close to knowing what you’re going through (although my husband works 12 hour days, he does help when he is home), I’m still around any time you need to vent.
I have been in your shoes, I want to say first, don’t feel bad about not wanting to play while you are depressed. So long as you are doing what the child needs to stay alive (feeding, sleeping, drinking, generally clean) then focus on that, if you did that, great! Long term it isn’t ideal, so on days it’s hard, but you know you haven’t been playing as much, set a timer, start with 5 minutes, if you can manage more, do more. Sometimes it’s hard, and you might want to give up, run for the hills. Some things that you’ve probably tried would be indoor activities, crafts, finding places around that are indoors where other kids can play for free or at a discount. Obviously surrounding yourself with supportive friends. Call someone and vent. Make a voice note. Journal. My kids are old enough to sit on my bed and watch tv while I shower, so that’s my current anxiety relief. Finding yours might take time. It gets better. Give it time, and hold on for the wild ride. Feel free to message