It’s hard and totally get where you are coming from but you are doing your best❤️ you definitely aren’t letting your little one down. Have a look if there is any free baby classes in your area to get you out with your little one without having to spend money. You might even make some mum friends. Just remember you are doing your best and that’s all that matters, your little one knows no different. Sometimes when I’m struggling I just go for a walk it’s like a reset for yourself and your baby
You sound overwhelmed with everything, what does your partner do to help ? Does he give you time to yourself at all like to even go for a relaxing bath or anything ? Does your parents offer to help maybe at weekend when they are not working ? There is other things to help you cope if you feel it's all too much at times. I had anxiety after my little one and take medication to help a bit and it does help .