Feeling like the worst mum
I am not doing good right now. I’m just over 2 weeks pp with my little girl after a traumatic induction and labour, resulting in an unplanned c section.
I’m really struggling at times and tonight my baby had been inconsolable for hours. I fed and changed her multiple times, rocked her, gave her a baby massage for trapped wind, burped her and nothing helped. She hadn’t slept for nearly 5/6 hours at this point.
My partner went to bed and got back up after only 2 hours cause she just wouldn’t stop screaming, then she instantly calmed down and went to sleep.
I feel like I just can’t settle her and it breaks my heart. I’m so scared of my partner going back to work in a couple weeks and her not getting what she needs to thrive.
All of this on top of still healing and in pain from my c section, horrific back pain and all around mum guilt.
My health visitor suggested a referral to the mental health team, but they only offered talking therapy and I don’t know how much that will help from past experience.
Just wish I could be what she needs 😭
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Thoughts are with you. You're in a difficult part of the journey where you just simply don't know what you're little one needs. Mine had colic/ silent reflux and it was a total shock to the system and didn't know how to manage. I simply didn't know what I was doing. The more the days will pass your baby will settle. I discovered mine liked my music. So I played Spotify and danced a lot and then cos I was happy, so was my little one being rocked and soothed in my arms. You will be doing a great job, you just don't know it yet. Don't be too hard on yourself xx
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Don’t worry about it. You got this and you are doing your best that you can. I know that it is a struggle right now. However it will get better eventually. You will have some days that are good and some days that could be bad. I am still talking to someone about my ppd at 6 months. It is still there and talking about it helps my mental state. Plus I had an emergency c section. It was a real struggle for me and my baby . My cousin said she had ppd for almost 2 years.