I could have written that first part myself, I’m a first time mum, she is 4months now, for the first 3 months she had colic and would cry. I didn’t want to go and meet others or worrying that she would cry, that they would judge me. I definitely still have postnatal anxiety because I am always worried about something, it’s like I never want her to cry, even her still having reflux will bring down my mood. I feel like it’s the standards which we have set ourselves of how we “should” be as a mum. I can’t say what’s helped because I’m very much still in it, but I would say, being kinder to yourself, focusing on your wins, maybe you need to process what happened with your first baby. Because colic is HARD. Also my mum is still clingy and I feel very judged for that. But remember why they are being clingy, you are their comfort. You did an amazing job and now you are doing it again. Try and be present in what is going well now. I don’t know if any of this is helpful but feel free to Dm x
I always felt uneasy because we moved to the mountains and I have a newborn and a toddler and a teenager and my husband works overnight . So I dread the nights when he’s about to leave , I’m always here to chat to help during the night ❤️