Awful Christmas

Girl it’s ok this Christmas wasn’t Christmassing but those pics are just pics I bet they argued the way to the party or some one ruined the night., I got so many pictures of my night that look like I’m so happy …but no one would be able to tell I was screaming my head off for 3 hours ,crying for the whole day till it came to heading over to the actual celebration ,and I’m on new antidepressants which …u know 🎉 keep all them social media posts or ur mind babes it will get better I promise

Yep, opened presents then felt like any other day. I was slaving away round the house and all while my partner was asleep. Didn’t even have a Christmas dinner, got to 7pm and my partner decided to order from the kebab shop :,)

Yes I didn’t even get anything for myself or my baby haha I am struggling this year but thankful he’s only 4 months so I can make it up :(

Those “perfect pictures” are only a snap shot of what the day was actually like. I know my Christmas was far from perfect. Also what is perfect for one family, is a nightmare for another. Do what makes you and your loved ones happy. Life is too short. I realised that the day doesn’t have to run smoothly. I overcooked the veg (my mum usually complains that I leave them “crunchy” 🙄) so she was happy. She forgot the sticks for kebabs so couldn’t make those. My newborn and I didn’t get dressed till 4pm. I was carving lamb in my dressing gown! My OH had to iron my dress and get our baby dressed! But we ate and we celebrated the birth of Christ, so it was a good day for us. However you celebrate and whatever you do, don’t worry about what others are getting up to xx.

I have several of those "fun family" pictures from yesterday but they don't capture the stress, tears, meltdowns etc that absolutely happened immediately after 😆 I made sure that my babies had the best day possible. They both said several time's how great this Christmas was. But what they didn't see was mama crying while cooking breakfast or mama walking on egg shells half the morning just to keep the peace for them. Don't let the pictures fool you ❤️

My kids woke up and opened gifts which was fun to watch and then their dad came and got them and I sat around alone watching TV! I have no family in this country so my Christmas always suck!

Ours was pretty blech too. I wanted the day to feel relaxed, joyful, and grateful, and..... it did not.

My photos look like your typical happy family Christmas, but I spent the entire day feeling like absolute shit because my long covid symptoms flaired up then health anxiety on top of that. My kids had a great day though and that's all that mattered to me. On the outside looking in you'd say I smashed it, but I've been hanging on by a thread lately with my physical and mental health. I took my tree down today and I've never done that so soon after Christmas before so that says alot. I know loads of people who wasn't feeling it this year, it's been weird x

I was not having it this year. We moved house 2 weeks ago today, MIL, SIL and FIL kept mucking around with our plans so I woke up xms day not sure if they would cancel last minute (they do that a lot to me). We had plumbing issues Xmas eve and woke up Xmas day to sewage backed up into the toilet. I wasn't feeling festive this year either and it was my baby's first Christmas. I have loads of guilt about it but also know next year will be better and our plans won't change. Both me and my partner have agreed that we'll host Christmas day, my mum nana and maybe brother will come to us and we'll celebrate here. If my in-laws want to join us they can but I'm not having anything year of a shit Christmas just because other people can't work out what's going on nor having just moved and having all the moving stress (2 weeks after moving and I've just got wifi, Xmas eve I had my oven installed and still having electrical and plumbing issues). Merry 🤬 Christmas. Bah Humbug