On The Struggle Bus Today…Solo Motherhood

Hi everyone, I’m a solo mom-to-be at 15 weeks, and I’m really struggling mentally and emotionally today. The baby’s father initially abandoned me for 3 months after learning I was pregnant, but now he’s back and says he wants to be involved. While I’m fine with just being friends, he’s asked me to move in with him before the baby arrives. I feel so trapped because I’m fighting with my workplace to secure maternity pay, and even if I get it, I don’t think I can afford rent and utilities on my own. My family lives abroad, and my mom plans to visit from South Africa for the birth, which I’m clinging to as my light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve always wanted to be a mother, but I’m starting to doubt my ability to provide and care for my baby on my own. I’m terrified of them growing up in a turbulent environment with parents who don’t get along. I’m trying to stay calm and graceful, but I feel like I’m falling apart. How do other single moms do this without much family or support? I could really use some advice or encouragement right now.