I question my choice every day

I found out i was pregnant with my 3rd at 3 weeks and like 4 days or something, and my husband wanted me to get an abortion. I couldn't bring myself to do it. I cried for days thinking about, barely talked to him, and cried on the phone with my ob discussing options. A bit later, he changed his mind and wanted to keep the pregnancy. I don't think I could've gone through with it regardless of my husband's feelings, I feel like I would've been completely depressed and numb for months at least. But some days, I honestly question my choice. Things are getting so expensive and so unaffordable, I feel so guilty. I've even gone as far as thinking about adoption, but my boys (4 and 2) are so excited for their baby brother, especially our 4 year old. There's no way I could explain to them in a way they'd understand when I wouldn't even be able to understand it myself. I just don't know how this is supposed to work.. I can't get a job because daycare is too expensive, I don't even have a car right now, our place is getting too cramped as it is and a house is so far out of the question in our area. I just feel like i made the wrong decision right now.. I've felt so guilty about this pregnancy that no one even knows yet and I'm almost 29 weeks pregnant, except a few friends.

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Sorry to hear that! I don’t know your how bad you're doing financially but Ill just give any options I can think of. You could look into jobs that allow you to work around your children and from home like Digital Marketing or an in-home Daycare. You could look into any assistance you may be eligible for from the gov’t, and start budgeting and cutting certain things where you can. You could thrift things, use fb marketplace or free to go groups or go to stores where they resell used children’s items. You could go to your local food banks or community fridges. Your husband could try to pick up more hours or have something he does on the side for extra money. You guys could also sell anything you may not need anymore. Another option is if you’re able to have a family member or friend watch your kids for free or cheap even if its one day a week you could pick up a job just for a little extra money. Hope everything works out 💕

@Tiara i was browsing job searches most of this morning to try and find something that lines up, but I was having a hard time with it. I thrift a ton from marketplace and buy a lot of my kids clothes second hand! I sell quite a bit when we find stuff we don't need anymore as well. Unfortunately, that doesn't bring in a ton of revenue to make a huge difference. I try to be extremely frugal where I can, it's actually my husband that has a hard time being frugal and bargain hunting lol We unfortunately dont really have people we trust to watch our kids a whole lot. The longest I've been away from my kids is when I gave birth to my second lol it's hard not having a "village" Thank you for your kind words 💕

Tell your husband to hurry up and get on board! 😂 and yeah, not having a “village” is definitely hard even when you do everyone is just so busy now a days and not as focused on community. Although you’re stressed congrats on your little one 💕

@Tiara he just has too many hobbies and likes to spoil our boys 😂 everyone is so busy, it sucks sometimes. I've been pretty much solo since having my first 4 years ago. Thank you 💕