I hate my life

I’m definitely not in a good state of mind right now but I’m completely alone right now and need any release I can get. I’m 36 weeks pregnant with a 3 year old daughter. I can’t drive. I don’t have a single friend or any family and my boyfriend is out of town for work. Being at home all the time is so isolating and soul sucking and I really can’t take it anymore there’s a lot of days I just want to jump off a cliff. I’ve never had friends or a group at all and I don’t get to go experience life or do things that adult friends do together and I really want to. Trying to make friends to go out with and have fun is starting to feel impossible. I’m so miserable and unhappy and cut off from everything and I don’t know how to cope anymore.
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I got my license when I was at that stage in my pregnancy

Being isolated without a vehicle is so hard. Is there a way for you to work something out with your boyfriend where you can have you time every week?

I’m so sorry you are feeling this way. Please talk to your partner about this. And, are you able to seek therapy? Although, I think the root of the problem is being stuck at home, alone. Please feel free to message me at any time if you need an outlet. No one should feel this way.

When my daughter was a baby my husband worked long hours and most days I was in the house all day alone with her. I used to have mental breakdowns. I would go in my closet or the bathroom and cry. We are not meant to carry that load by ourselves. That’s why they say it takes a village to raise a baby. I would call my mom crying saying that I didn’t want to live anymore. Please let your partner and your OB know that you are feeling this way. Where’s your family? When does your husband come back home?

I'm not super close to you but let's chat. You shouldn't have to feel this way. I'm home most days too and it's been heavy on me for a while. Trust me you are not alone in the struggle to be a mama and make new friends!

@Jackie thank you for the response. You described how I’m feeling perfectly. A lot of my family lives in San Francisco so it’s hard to get support from them, my boyfriend’s going to be gone for the rest of the month though. I’m definitely feeling the pressure now though

@Jen thank you, I’m sorry you go through it too, it’s harder than I thought it was going to be and I really needed to hear that I’m not alone. I’m trying to stay optimistic and it means a lot to me that people took the time to share their experiences with me. It brought me some comfort

@Kaila My heart hurts for you because I know how you’re feeling and it’s horrible. I wish I lived by you so I could help you. The rest of the month is a long time. Is there anything free you can enroll your daughter in? My daughter is started head start sort of late she was 3 1/2 . It’s a public school so it’s free. She goes part time. It gives me some time for myself & she loves it.

My psychiatrist literally told me i workout five days a week. It’s clinically proven to improve mental health significantly better than medication. I would recommend that as a first step ♥️

@Kaila of course! You are a beautiful young women and your kiddos need a mama who loves herself so take care of you!

@Kaila Ik it’s hard especially when feeling depressed but push yourself to get out of the house even if it’s just for a walk around the block. I’m sure your 3 year old would love it get out too. Is there a park nearby that you can walk to or take an uber? She could play with other kids while you sit down , relax and get some fresh air and sun.

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