bittersweet

I’m going through a tough situation right now, I just need some support. I’ve been with my partner five years and we just welcomed our daughter about a year ago emotionally. There’s been no kind of support at all and I often feel drained or torn down by him but like every relationship, we do have a highs and lows. I know that he’s a good man. He supported our family financially since we met but now after having my baby and feeling so vulnerable, hurt and let down one month before she turns one year old I’m packed my stuff and I’m having him take us back to California (we move to Miami together about two years ago) he saying things that are really conflicting me like “ you’re leaving me” “ I didn’t wanna tell anyone because it looks like we’re separating” and it makes me feel like I’m breaking up our family. I’m not sure if I want to divorce him, but I definitely need time and space to heal cause I just feel so much trauma from the past couple years especially the treatment that I’ve gotten after becoming a mother. I hope I don’t sound dramatic or ungrateful and sorry if this doesn’t make any sense