I think a good Mother’s Day gift would be me disappearing.
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When i was in college i had a skin mite infestation that lasted about 2 years. It was horrendous. Hell on earth. I thought about sui often involuntarily. It finally went away and i was able to pull myself out of the darkness. Feel joy. I’m still healing but i MADE it. You can too. You can survive the world and yourself. Start getting in nature let it heal you
I have felt the same way before.. Not saying this is for you but I found God, prayer and Christian music to really pull me out of those dark times and bring happiness and purpose back to my life
You matter mama. The fact that you posted this means you are not ready to give up. Please seek professional mental help support and practice self care. Personally as a Christian, anchoring my life in God’s unconditional love has helped me navigate mental challenges. I hope you get all the needed help and support you need. God bless.
You wouldn’t get to see the aftermath. Any peace you think would happen, you wouldn’t get to experience. Everything lasts a season, if you think you truly need to give people a break, maybe an inpatient stay or some other vacation may be a good option. It sounds like you need a change of environment. You’re loved even if you don’t feel it. Maybe a nice outing with the kiddos instead for Mother’s Day. :) If you’re interested in resources, I’ll be happy to find some in your area. The universe loves you. Your brain is stuck with hormones and chemical that do wonky stuff. Don’t let that meat sack dictate your ability to persevere.