Totally get you. Feeling the same.. I’m also doing pumping and expressing/ partner helping out too when I’ve reach my limit. What keeps me going is to look up and write down all the benefits of breastfeeding.. it’s not just bonding but several health benefits for mum & baby. Also I think about animals.. how they feed their young (I know it’s not the same) but this helps me.. whenever you see an animal.. they don’t stop feeding their young due to mental health.. they look miserable but carry on.. I don’t know why I think of this but just helps me to think it’s more of a biological primal thing.. Are you having any time to yourself to do self-care? Would recommend leaving a bottle for partner and go off for an hour or 2 by yourself , have some me time. It’s so much better when you come back refreshed
Would you try formula once a day? That could maybe help with morning or evening feed so you can get a couple of hours sleep before/ after baby is in bed. It may be a break that’s helpful until they are a tiny bit older and feeding less x
Your mental health is super important, my little girl is two weeks today and it is extremely exhausting! Have you tried a hakaa? I’m able to get 30ml just from having it on the boob bubs hasn’t fed from which means you’re not attached to the pump?