• E
  • about 2 months ago

Postpartum depression 😔

I am 2 weeks and 4 days postpartum and it’s been the hardest 2 weeks of my life. I was diagnosed with postpartum depression and whenever I feel like I have to talk to someone I do but all I get is eye rolls and “ you look amazing for just having a baby”, “ I wish I could have snapped back like that “ I get these looks like ‘ what do you have to be depressed about? you don’t even look like you just had a baby’ And after talking to someone I just feel worse and I feel bad for having postpartum depression. But you know what it’s not about how I look it’s about how I feel. And Right now I’m having a really hard time accepting this is my new body. I feel like my son deserves a better mother, every time my baby cries I cry apologizing to my son for not being the mother he needs. I feel like my husband deserves a better wife. I go to bed wondering how I can wake up and meet the demands a newborn brings. And that’s if I do go to bed. Every time I eat food I ask myself how much can I eat without gaining any weight? And I eat 3 bites and I feel absolutely disgusting. I cry when I try to pump breastmilk for an hour and not even get an ounce of breastmilk because my breasts didn’t develop all the way during puberty. So yeah I may have snapped back physically but Not emotionally. But my point is when someone comes to you and wanting to talk through there postpartum depression don’t look at them like there crazy or “ I had it worse than you “ look. Because it’s not a freaking competition on who’s postpartum is the worst. We all struggle through it, it may look different than yours but it’s still a struggle.
  • N
  • SC, US
  • about 2 months ago

Don’t feel bad mom. I’m 6 months postpartum and I’m still going through postpartum depression. My son’s doctor told me I could experience this up until he’s 1. No ones depression is better than the other one. As family or friends or whom ever your trying to vent to they should be helping you or least listening. Sometimes that’s all you need...someone to listen. I hope you get through this mama. Your still beautiful tho girl 😘

  • N
  • CA, US
  • 2 months ago

first off, you are BEAUTIFUL. and you did an amazing job because your baby is beautiful. everyday I feel like my son deserves better than me, but the good days make up for the bad ones. not everyone you see on social media who looks like they’re doing good is what they seem. some are better at hiding and faking it than others. just remember mama, there is no other person in the world more fit for your baby than you. the struggles are what make it so much more rewarding in the end. it’s only a season, and you are not alone. keep pushing beautiful! you got this❤️

  • S
  • ENG, GB
  • 3 months ago

Here if you ever want to talk and shout, moan cry everything x

  • A
  • NV, US
  • 3 months ago

Talking to a therapist will do you good. I felt the same way and it helped so much. About your not producing milk has nothing to due about how small your boobs are. Mine are small and I was still able to make produce for the first 2 1/2 months for my son. You just gotta wat healthy and drink a lot of water. Which right now seems impossible but it will make you feel better too because you’ll produce more milk and you’ll feel good about yourself. Hang in there momma you’re doing great.

  • A
  • CT, US
  • 3 months ago

Hello i am actually a certified doula and I specialize in post partum depression. You or anyone else who would like to chat is welcome to message me at any point. If you just need someone to talk to or tips on how to just breath is a moment of chaos where everything's seems overwhelming and never ending. Please don't hesitate to message me. This quarantine has been really hard for us moms. I hope you all stay safe ❤.

  • A
  • CT, US
  • 3 months ago

Also just want to say I do have my own little one to care for so i may not get back to you rite away but i will as soon as I can and I will respond.

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