• E
  • FL, US
  • 3 months ago

Postpartum depression 😔

I am 2 weeks and 4 days postpartum and it’s been the hardest 2 weeks of my life. I was diagnosed with postpartum depression and whenever I feel like I have to talk to someone I do but all I get is eye rolls and “ you look amazing for just having a baby”, “ I wish I could have snapped back like that “ I get these looks like ‘ what do you have to be depressed about? you don’t even look like you just had a baby’ And after talking to someone I just feel worse and I feel bad for having postpartum depression. But you know what it’s not about how I look it’s about how I feel. And Right now I’m having a really hard time accepting this is my new body. I feel like my son deserves a better mother, every time my baby cries I cry apologizing to my son for not being the mother he needs. I feel like my husband deserves a better wife. I go to bed wondering how I can wake up and meet the demands a newborn brings. And that’s if I do go to bed. Every time I eat food I ask myself how much can I eat without gaining any weight? And I eat 3 bites and I feel absolutely disgusting. I cry when I try to pump breastmilk for an hour and not even get an ounce of breastmilk because my breasts didn’t develop all the way during puberty. So yeah I may have snapped back physically but Not emotionally. But my point is when someone comes to you and wanting to talk through there postpartum depression don’t look at them like there crazy or “ I had it worse than you “ look. Because it’s not a freaking competition on who’s postpartum is the worst. We all struggle through it, it may look different than yours but it’s still a struggle.
  • A
  • CA
  • 8 days ago

I hear you. It sounds really tough to go through what you are going through. You are the best mother your baby can have. Nobody can be a better mother than you. You are designed to love and nourish your baby (not only physically but with your loving presence) like no other person. Your husband knows who you are and knows you are not your depression. It is though for every body and you will get through it and once you do you will see how beautiful you are and how beautiful life is. Time and patience. Nourish yourself with healthy food and feed your mind with beautiful pictures and give your body what it needs to heal. You will know what that is. It's a dark time. And the light waits for you. Sending my love to you!

  • B
  • CA
  • 8 days ago

Hey mama!! I had PPD after all three of my kids! I know exactly what you mean. If you need someone to listen or vent to or whatever message me! 😘

  • B
  • CA
  • 18 hours ago

Yes I still struggle with it and my youngest is 4. I got through it by first making sure I always took care of myself. It sounds silly but when you look good you feel good and when you feel good you look good. So even if I was staying home all day I got dressed, did my hair, brushed teeth, etc. I never let myself stay in PJs or sweats or anything all day. Then I gave myself a rule. For every hour I laid on the couch doing nothing I had to “pay” myself back with an hour of something productive. Going for a walk, folding a load of laundry, taking my kids to the playground, etc. And probably most importantly and probably the hardest for me was I was vocal about it. When I needed me time I told my hubby and made sure I got it. When I needed a date night with him I told him. When I was having a hard day and struggling I told someone in my support circle. I talked. I voiced my needs and how I needed those needs met.

  • B
  • 8 days ago

How did you get through ppd? Do you still experience it?

  • K
  • 12 days ago

Idk if there is anything anyone can tell you to make you feel better bc I know how hard it is to find someone that can tell me otherwise...I mean, even when I have some type of epiphany, I start being depressed and angry and stay like that for days. What helps though is my son. And the sad thing is that if I were to die from not taking care of myself or bc I killed myself (those thoughts I had since I was little) then he will still have his dad and other family members that will be there to help raise him...he will forever be sad but he will have to move on...yeah I think alot of dark stuff in the inside but in the outside I HAVE to survive. On the outside I HAVE to take care of myself so I'm the one that will be there to raise him...he sees me as his hero (villain when I dont give him a snack) and we are very close so I just cant ...I cant and I won't let this negativity in my head win. But that's me...I hope you can find something to help you move forward

  • P
  • CA, US
  • 11 days ago

I think the exact same way love. I just feel like you have to stay strong for them it’s already a big dark hard world imagine not having his mother by his side! I wouldn’t be able to do that to him. I keep telling myself everything will pass one day you will look at the bigger picture and it will all make sense.For now trust in god and be thankful he put that baby in your life. God bless love 💕

  • P
  • CA, US
  • 11 days ago

I think the exact same way love. I just feel like you have to stay strong for them it’s already a big dark hard world imagine not having his mother by his side! I wouldn’t be able to do that to him.

  • t
  • Merrick, United States
  • 21 days ago

My husband passed away on August 3rd this year he fanted I was 37weeks pregnant he never got to meet our bundle of joy

  • K
  • ME, US
  • a month ago

Hey momma! Definitely reach out to your doctor and ask them for help finding someone to talk to. I was diagnosed with ppd before I had my third and it was so hard and I felt so unsupported. You are doing a great job babies cry, our bodies change, breast feeding is hard but you can get through this because you need to❤️ sending you love and feel free to reach out anytime you need to chat!

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