• E
  • FL, US
  • a month ago

Postpartum depression 😔

I am 2 weeks and 4 days postpartum and it’s been the hardest 2 weeks of my life. I was diagnosed with postpartum depression and whenever I feel like I have to talk to someone I do but all I get is eye rolls and “ you look amazing for just having a baby”, “ I wish I could have snapped back like that “ I get these looks like ‘ what do you have to be depressed about? you don’t even look like you just had a baby’ And after talking to someone I just feel worse and I feel bad for having postpartum depression. But you know what it’s not about how I look it’s about how I feel. And Right now I’m having a really hard time accepting this is my new body. I feel like my son deserves a better mother, every time my baby cries I cry apologizing to my son for not being the mother he needs. I feel like my husband deserves a better wife. I go to bed wondering how I can wake up and meet the demands a newborn brings. And that’s if I do go to bed. Every time I eat food I ask myself how much can I eat without gaining any weight? And I eat 3 bites and I feel absolutely disgusting. I cry when I try to pump breastmilk for an hour and not even get an ounce of breastmilk because my breasts didn’t develop all the way during puberty. So yeah I may have snapped back physically but Not emotionally. But my point is when someone comes to you and wanting to talk through there postpartum depression don’t look at them like there crazy or “ I had it worse than you “ look. Because it’s not a freaking competition on who’s postpartum is the worst. We all struggle through it, it may look different than yours but it’s still a struggle.
  • A
  • 2 days ago

And don’t let anyone make you feel bad, no one is going to get this other than those going through it so when people say smart remarks let it roll off your shoulders bc they are ignorant at the fact. They won’t get it until they experience it and most men won’t ever get it either. You’re basically a super hero now and mortals won’t understand lol

  • A
  • 2 days ago

You’re not alone at all, my baby is 1 month today and all I’ve done is jump from my baby daddies house to my families house to my friends house bc I can’t stand being alone and isolated and I still feel that way bc I’m up all night with baby and everyone works full time. It’s hard to get through but I can say that I’m doing better mentally than I did at two weeks. You will start to adapt and things will get easier, I breastfeed too so I know your pain. Just keep pushing through and it will slowly become easier for you to manage and sleep and once you start to know your routine you will be more comfortable putting baby down and getting things done here and there outside of baby. But trust me I’m with you, never ever knew how hard this shit would be.

  • F
  • Salinas, United States
  • 18 days ago

I had PPD with my first for about a year. I was never giving medication or saw a therapist. With my second pregnancy my depression start early when I was 5 months pregnant and I took a action right away. Now my second son is 3 weeks and I have a severe PPD taking medication and keep seeing my therapist and it is helping. Talking and expressing your feelings to others that do not judge is the best and I am here for u when u need it because that’s all I need as well. Stay strong it will surpass.

  • R
  • Wadhurst, United Kingdom
  • 18 days ago

Totally understand this I was made to feel like a nuisance and that I should just be happy. But I felt the opposite, not so bad with my second but it’s still hard. Sending all my love xx

  • E
  • MO, US
  • 21 days ago

If you ever need someone to talk to I’m here for you! My son is 11 months old and I’m still dealing with PPD and PPA! What I have to keep telling myself is my husband loves me my son loves me and that’s all that matters. Sometimes I feel like a horrible mom especially since I work full time and goes to daycare but I try to remind myself that I’m a full time mom to provide for my family and I’m amazing for that. Also your a champ for breastfeeding! But just remember it is okay for them to have a bottle if you can’t produce my son is a full formula baby (my milk never came in) and he never went hungry because I would produce!

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