I promised myself I wouldn’t post this incognito. I want other mamas to see that it’s okay to not have an instant connection with your little one and it can sometimes take months to connect!
So today I had my first picture taken of me and Elijah since we left the hospital and he is now 9 months. Since having Elijah I’ve really struggled with PPD and anxiety. I’ve always had depression and anxiety but it has had a bad flare up since I had bubs. I’ve been really struggling with bonding with him and I’ve been working so hard on it. Today I let my partner take a picture of us. It feels like I’m finally over the mountain I’ve been struggling to climb. I also for the first time managed to say “I love you” to Elijah a few days ago, it just came out and it almost felt wrong? I’m still working on that one but I’m so proud of myself and the progress I’ve made!