This is the first time I've posted. I'm not pregnant, my sister is carrying my husband and my baby.
My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 9 years this month. it's consumed my entire life. It's all i want. We had one pregnancy which ended up ectopic 4-1/2 years ago, with no luck since then. This seemed like the answer to our prayers.
We think she is miscarrying and her words were "It's not looking good at all. I'm so sorry Hannah."
And I feel so broken hearted...
I was so excited! I thought this was finally it. For the first time my entire adult life, i was able to feel happy for pregnant women. I was able to feel a genuine good feeling at their good news instead of selfish hurt that always makes me feel like crap. Like I'm a horrible friend.
I just want to go hide in a hole somewhere.
I already started buying things and clearing out my spare bedroom. I already planned telling my mother-in law. My mom is so excited, she is going to be so devastated. My niece is 12 and she has been through this journey with me the whole time. This is a blow to my entire family! This is an absolute tragedy and I feel like I can't breathe! I'm sorry I'm all over the place, but I really needed to vent.