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3 years ago

My heart is breaking 💔

This is the first time I've posted. I'm not pregnant, my sister is carrying my husband and my baby. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 9 years this month. it's consumed my entire life. It's all i want. We had one pregnancy which ended up ectopic 4-1/2 years ago, with no luck since then. This seemed like the answer to our prayers. We think she is miscarrying and her words were "It's not looking good at all. I'm so sorry Hannah." And I feel so broken hearted... I was so excited! I thought this was finally it. For the first time my entire adult life, i was able to feel happy for pregnant women. I was able to feel a genuine good feeling at their good news instead of selfish hurt that always makes me feel like crap. Like I'm a horrible friend. I just want to go hide in a hole somewhere. I already started buying things and clearing out my spare bedroom. I already planned telling my mother-in law. My mom is so excited, she is going to be so devastated. My niece is 12 and she has been through this journey with me the whole time. This is a blow to my entire family! This is an absolute tragedy and I feel like I can't breathe! I'm sorry I'm all over the place, but I really needed to vent.
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3 years ago

Praying everything ended up okay 💕

3 years ago

Praying for you guys praying its not a miscarriage

3 years ago

I’m so sorry mama, I’m no stranger to loss and my heart hearts yours. 💕 I’m a post of a loss group on fb that would welcome you with open arms. You’re feelings are completely valid. I will include you in my prayers. 💕💕

3 years ago

Prayers to you, your husband and sister. May god bless you with your rainbow baby ♥️♥️♥️

3 years ago

This is so heartbreaking to read. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I know this feels awful but please don’t give up hope. I pray for comfort at this time and I hope all your prayers get answered. Sending you hugs

3 years ago

Praying for you! You will get through this. Us women are stronger than we think. I pray your sister can try again! I had 3 miscarriages it is so tough I’m sorry.

3 years ago

Sorry to hear this. Can’t imagine the pain you’re in. Please stay strong. You’re an amazing person and my heart goes out to you.

3 years ago

I’m so sorry you have to go through this. I had a severe miscarriage and it caused my kidneys to fail and got me super sick. I had a really hard time trying to get pregnant for 3-4 years. In my opinion, I feel like it’ll happen when your body is ready for it. It can take awhile to get pregnant after a miscarriage. But it’s not impossible. Even if a doctor tells you it’s impossible, doesn’t mean it is. My step mom got told it was completely impossible for her to ever get pregnant and she had 2 little girls. But it took a long time. As far as your sister goes, I hope all turns out well for her. Just gotta stay strong and still support her even if that’s what’s happening. Because she’s going to feel like a major failure. I hope the best for you guys, and just stay strong!

3 years ago

Yes definitely your time will come. You just need to have hope. And stay positive even though it may be soo difficult. Xx

3 years ago

So sorry to hear this 💔 but don't lose hope. You will have your rainbow baby soon. I know a couple who had thier 1st child after 20years! And now they have 2 boys. So have hope x

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3 years ago

Thank you! I really love hearing stories like that. It does give me hope because there really is still time.

3 years ago

I'm so so sorry. I hope all turns out well for you and you get your rainbow baby soon

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3 years ago

Thank you!

3 years ago

Hannah, I’m so sorry to read your post. My heart breaks for you. I cannot even begin to imagine the pain you’re feeling. Just know I’m sending all my positive vibes your way.

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3 years ago

Thank you so much!❤️

3 years ago

Awww im so sorry to hear this. Thinking of you x

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3 years ago

Thank you ❤️

3 years ago

Dear sweet Hannah, I pray that your pain is taken away and replaced with the joy that only a child can bring. You’ve been going through this for 9 years now, and it shows how strong and resilient you are. Do not give up! You will have your baby. Despite the pain felt in your text, I can tell what a beautiful person you are and you deserve to become a mom. I send you, your husband, sister, niece and rest of the family lots of positive and comforting vibes. 💕

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3 years ago

I instantly teared up when i saw this comment. It sounded like the way my mom speaks to me. Thank you so much! ❤️

3 years ago

I am praying for peace and comfort for you. I’m so sorry, be gentle to yourself and know that you are not alone. ❤️

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3 years ago

Thank you and I will

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3 years ago

Blessings, poor weary soul. I beg for you to be comforted and peace to be brought at long last.

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3 years ago

Thank you ❤️

3 years ago

So sorry how devastating, sending a big hug to you 🫂 and I hope in the future you get your rainbow baby x

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3 years ago

Thank you❤️

3 years ago

My heart absolutely breaks for you. I am so sorry to read this. You are incredibly strong to have gone through all of this. Wishing you all the best and really really hope things are ok xxx

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3 years ago

Thank you so much!

3 years ago

Hannah I am so, so sorry you’re going through this. This is no ones fault. It’s a cruel outcome for you and my heart goes out to you. I myself have had 2 ectopic pregnancies and now have a healthy baby girl. You will have your rainbow baby one day, they will come back to you 🌈 Sending you, your husband and your sister lots of love and strength xx

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3 years ago

It was very hard, more mentally than physically I think. Unless someone’s experienced an ectopic pregnancy that wants to survive but can’t, I don’t think anyone understands the pain we go through. No, thankfully I managed to keep both my tubes in both events. Please try to keep positive as hard as it is. They will return to you xxx

3 years ago

Thank you so much! Two?! That must have been hard? Did you lose a tube? I caught mine in time thank the Lord.

3 years ago

I’m so sorry for your loss Hannah😔💕

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3 years ago

Thank you❤️❤️

3 years ago

I’m so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Just have faith and you will be blessed with your 🌈 baby 💕

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3 years ago

Thank you, I know I will. I can't give up now

3 years ago

❤️❤️❤️ sending you love xxx

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3 years ago

Thank you❤️

3 years ago

I'm so so sorry that this is happening to you 😢

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3 years ago

Thank you ❤️

3 years ago

Hannah I am so sorry💔 my heart breaks for you and your family. There are no words to say that can heal what you are going through. I pray that you’ll have another opportunity and your rainbow baby in your arms soon❤️🌈

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3 years ago

Thank you so much for your kind words❤️

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