Weird connection

Hey mums, I’m 23 and FTM to my beautiful baby girl who is now 6 months. From day 1 I have had issues connecting or bonding with the people. Yeah I know it’s weird because I’m married and I have a baby lol but it’s weird, I usually feel like I’m just going through the motion. Unfortunately. A lot of my big life experiences I wasn’t really “there” idk how to explain it. Almost cold and numb. But oh my gosh… today I just don’t know what it is about today but me and my baby reached peak bonding and connecting. I’m like crying whilst writing this. Just thinking about my baby. I saw a post about mums talking about really bonding or getting into motherhood in general around 5/6 months. Is this why I feel this overwhelming love and attachment to my baby just now? I mean I’ve always known I love her and I’ve always know to be the best mother for her… but now it’s like a crazy feeling. Like I’ve just been swallowed up by the colour yellow. Sorry if this sounds weird, this is my brain in a nutshell. I’m just so happy that I truly truly love being a mother to my child and not just telling myself that! Anyone experience this too??