Miserable

I gained some weight in the last year and I feel so gross and ugly and my clothes don't fit. I've just been isolating at home with my kids. I haven't seen any family or friends even though they've been trying to see me but I'm scared of judgment and I just don't like myself right now. I don't even want to see my kids' dad. I'm dieting and working out at home but some meds that I take make it really hard to lose weight Just venting and sad