I'm lonely

My baby is I'm the nicu ans it's killing me and u feel so lonely in the mean time. I have no one. I miss my family but I have trouble seeing them and they aren't the best anyway. I live with my bf and his fam and half of them don't like me and I'm so lonely. When bf gets home he's on his phone talking to his few friends or on video game that's so important or watching sports and I'm so fucking lonely. He used to always be all over me even in my pregnancy though he did slow down some. Now he doesn't ever want me. It's only just been 6 weeks but I was cleared at 4. Plus with his attitude you'd really think he's want like hand stuff before that. I feel disgusting. If anything he wants head. So I stopped that. I had a c section and feel so gross looking. Like he can't get passed it. He says that's not it. That he's not in the mood. But everytime? For 2 weeks? Why can't he show me attention while I can't even have my baby. I want my baby!!!!!! His mom and sister chose the other day to argue with me over something fromn3 years ago. They're all assholes and I'm so depressed. I don't want antidepressants but that a what ppl are pushing em towards instead of actually just helping me and being good people and talking to me. I need someone.

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I understand that, but remember you are not alone. You are stronger than that. Your baby needs you. Forget everybody else.

You are not disgusting. You are beautiful. Your baby is beautiful because of you. Your csection is motherhood. You gave life. You're not alone. You're far, but I'm with you in spirit, and all of us here are with you. Your hormones and tiredness don't make it easy. Relationships usually struggle temporarily when the baby arrives because everyone is tired. Things will become better. There's always someone who loves you.

I am also a mom of a preemie baby from the NICU.. What you are going through is probably one of the hardest things you will have to go over. If I lived close to you, I would come and give you a hug and tell you, you are not alone. You are a strong woman, and I know you will fight like hell to get your baby back to you. You are loved and wanted. While this time is hard, I want you to know you can reach out to me when you’re ready.

@Katie thank you. Its the hardest ever. I feel like no one understands unless you've gone through it. With an extended stay too.

@Emily I don’t know if you want to talk. But I did message you. If you don’t wanna answer that okay. But I’m rooting for you 💕

message me! you don’t ever have to feel alone mama

You're a fighter, a nicu mama is going through the worst of it all. Mine was in there for 2 months and my ppd was horrible. It will all come to an end soon. Please talk to him about this as well. Communication is a must and you need to know now if this is the best for you. I was always reminded that they are taking care of your baby and it's in amazing hands, you need to take care of yourself. It's so hard to hear, I wanted to scream at anyone who said some shit like "at least she is here" "take now to heal so she can have you" like it's never what you want to hear. But it will end, it doesn't feel like it but it will, and they will be right there with you again. Hugs mama, everything will be okay 🫶

I’m sending you all the light and love. My sisters baby was in the NICU for 10 months and I saw her anxiety, stress, worry and need for love every day. You deserve love always, especially right now. Have a sit down with everyone if you can and try to have a conversation about the support that you need. The sex honestly can wait. I had a c section and at 6 weeks I felt ready but wasn’t. Your body is healing so hard right now, your heart too. Take it easy on yourself and seek out things that fulfill you. If you need meds the can be temporary. I had major post partum and didn’t take them and if I could do it all again I would. No shame in getting whatever version of help you need. Is your family a part of your life? Do any of your friends have babies? Find your person. Sending you hugs

Just wanted to say I’m here to talk anytime and would love to be mom friends if you’d like🥹 you’re not alone!!

@Cali hey I'd love that

I'm so not doing ok

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