Crippling fear of loss
I had a missed miscarriage with my first pregnancy at the end of 2023. I'm so lucky to now have a beautiful baby girl who is 4 and a half months old. I've realised over the last few weeks that I have a real sense of fear when it comes to losing her. I can't seem to shake the dread of it and it's just such a horrible feeling. My head keeps saying I've lost one baby, I can't lose another! It seems so irrational as she's such a happy, healthy little thing but I think it all stems from past trauma. I'm seeking help for it through my health visitor as clearly I need to process a few things but I just wondered if anybody else has this same sense of fear? It's just crippling š«
I had 2 miscarriages before this current pregnancy Iām 37 weeks today and I understand that fear Iāve gotten every kind of prevention item possible an owlet sock, my baby will be cosleeping with me in my room I have a bassinet right next to my bed and his crib at the foot of my bed Iām so grateful that this pregnancy stuck but Iām also terrified of losing him after birth or after bringing him home it will start getting better eventually being scared of losing your baby after experiencing a previous loss of a child and or pregnancy is completely normal itās exhausting and scary but it also shows how much you care and how much of a good mom you are to worry and care about your child youāre doing amazing donāt forget that tell yourself that once a day at least and things will get better soon I promise youāre not alone love ā¤ļø