Episiotomy - help!

I’m currently just over five weeks PP and had a forcep delivery with episiotomy. It all went a bit traumatic from there with blood loss and a further surgery the next day which has meant that my episiotomy has healed pretty badly. I’ve had a part that is open for weeks and the midwives, doctors and even gynaecologists at the hospital have advised it will just heal in time, despite it being wide open/deep and effectively a giant hole. Tonight it’s started bleeding again and I’m just so fed up. Has anyone else had something similar or any stories on how it got better?