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I’m so sorry you are experiencing this right now please reach out to anyone you can trust & feel comfortable with $ ask for help. I’m here as well if you need to talk. I’ve been through exactly what you’re going through now & I promise it gets better.
@Neneh it’s been years already this doesn’t get better 7 years or more of misery I question everything been through so much I’m sick of fighting over something not worth it I constantly feel this way
I thought & believed the same thing for many years. Why? Because the pain was so intense & overbearing for me to take & experience any longer. I thought once I leave earth the pain stops & I’ll be ok. But every time I wanted to go through with it I took one look at my son & I said if I do this my child may experience worse than I have. One thing I did was always cried out to God. Even if I didn’t say a word to God but my tears & pain did the talking for me. I experienced it intensely the first 3yrs of my son’s life. And on & off until he was 8yrs old. God & the infinity & beyond love I have for my son kept me going all those years. Your precious babies need you. I understand you’re SO tired. I’ve been tired like that as well. God, humanity Your kids, & even yourself wants you here. You leaving means we would lose a precious vessel who has so much to experience & give to the world.
What worked for me was I went to therapy & church. I’ve made it to the other side & im glad I didn’t go through with it. Try to see & find out what may work for you.
I can promise you it does get better. Get help, talk to someone even just a close friend can help. Get on medication if you need to, there is no shame in that. I went through feeling hopeless for years and i can tell you now I have never been happier. It’s heavy and feels hopeless in the thick of it but once you get to the otherside your life will change. You posting this says you do want help and you do what to keep going, you will make it out. 🩵 message me if you want no judgement I’ll just be there to listen. It’s hard but you got this. You are so strong just for reaching out like this
Have you chat with Jesus lately? I want you to know that its not just you. Thr wave of warfare, especially on mothers & fathers, has been UNRELENTING. Even the blessed of the blessed in this life are struggling under the weight of enemy attacks...I don't want you to be deceived into thinking that we live, struggle, die...and that's all there is. We struggle BECAUSE of this "invisible" enemy that's always after our peace & our very lives. If you could make a post about what's on your heart in the group, "Christian Mamas" also...You will be met with encouragement from people who felt/feel just like you...and how they have made their way through. You're not alone!💛
Oh no - I’m so sorry. Please please talk to someone! They can get you help and figure out what is going on so you don’t have to feel that way!! It is hard to become a mom and sometimes leave part of you behind or grow into this new identity but you are the WORLD to your kids. I don’t know your situation but there are ways to change this and overcome the depression that’s holding you back! If you don’t have a therapist maybe talk to your kids doctor and tell them you feel this way? Or a friend or family member? Let them help you!