Single mama now

Just left my husband , I’ve been struggling for weeks with feeling like I’m loved and any affection especially since I’ve put on weight and have been more irritated because of hormones and declining health as a high risk mama second time around. We’ve decided to still live together for the next year and raise our kids as co parents but not tell anyone we’re split up , so definitely feeling very isolated and alone knowing that we’re officially split up and I have no one to turn to for support. Not sure how we’re going to deal seeing as we both do love each other so much but we just cant give each other what we both want or need without it being forced and not actually out of truly loving one another . Really struggling and would love some advice🩷