Not feeling excited 🫤

I was pregnant this time last year and I miscarried in November 23. It’s taken me a while to get my cycles back into a routine as well as mentally feel ready again to try. I’m 4 weeks pregnant now but I’m just full of doubt, fear and worry. I just don’t feel excited at all. Is this weird? I’m just annoyed at my husband all the time as well. I have a nausea feeling this time, back ache (which I had before) but I just want to eat all the time as well 🙊 I’m also 41 I think there is feeling of if it doesn’t work it’s my last time trying to have our first baby. Also do I tell my boss? They obviously knew about my miscarriage before and I do some heavy lifting sometimes but I’m worried if I tell them as well it’s then real and what if I lose it again. Sorry for the rant I just don’t think my partner understand where I am in my head.
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Congratulations!! Wishing you the best for your pregnancy journey. I can definitely relate about having the feelings of doubt, fear and worry, so I don’t think you’re the only one! I think being in these early stages is definitely nerve racking. How is your relationship with your boss? I think they would understand given what you’ve been through. If you feel like the lifting could be a problem maybe mention it? I read that as long as you can exercise and hold a conversation it’s generally safe. I’m also unsure about telling my boss too, I generally work from home so could get away with it, but we have a team meeting next week and will be going out for dinner and drinks. I think it will be so obvious when they see I’m not drinking!

@DS thank you. I’ve got my midwife appointment come through now so it’s feeling a bit more real I suppose. My relationship is pretty good. When I was pregnant last year I pretty much worked from home most the time so I was able to go a bit more undetected but after I had a miscarriage they announced we was all coming back in every day from January 24. It’s been really tough with adjusting to that as well the miscarriage. I’m going to tell my boss tomorrow, I tried doing some light lifting and bending to tape boxes but my back is really uncomfortable at the moment. I massively pushed myself last time doing everything, kept doing all the lifting and I’m not taking that chance again. It’s not my main job it’s just one of those companies that you all end up doing things as there isn’t someone assigned to do it. Some of the boxes are 25kg plus so it’s just a lot to move about the office. I’m already getting the looks as I’m on the decaf and eating like a horse 😂

@Joolz I think telling them is definitely the right thing to do then! And I agree, there’s no way you should push yourself this time around, especially if it’s not your main job. You need to put yourself first! Who cares if people notice, there’s only so much we can do to stay unnoticed. And if you’re eating a lot it can be good excuse for when you do get a bump 😆

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