I got my first Tattoo and hate it.

Feeling so extermily stressed and down. I got my first ever Tattoo in memory of my dog that died a few days before my emergency c-section. That whole time was very traumatic. He died so suddenly and I still miss him over a year later. I've been waiting this Tattoo for a while and I found someone who's work I really like they do a lot of bright watercolours. I went for a consultation and he told me he only does the designs on the day but he took pictures of the reference which was a paw print I had showed him from my dog. I was very nervous about this but apparently its normal. I went on the day and said I wanted the paw print just like my dogs size and all. Which is what I said in the consultation and he said he didn't know the size and needed the actual print . I didn't have it I thought he would have all he needs from the consultation. He said I would have to rebook and pay for this session as well because he's losing business. I felt pressured into doing the tattoo as I'm going away next week then I'm back at work after. I was unsure of the exact design and colours and was hoping for actual input. But he just showed me 1 design and there wasn't much to go on. But I trusted his experience and thought it would look good. It does not look good I was convinced to using 2 colours red and blue and they just look so contrasting I thought it was be nicely blended but they look painted next to each other not flowing at all. The watercolour looks massive and the paw print is swollewed by it. I'm feeling so down and have been in bed for the past 2 days. I have so much stress from going away tomorrow ( wasn't my idea at all my bf family paid for a suprise trip) I'm starting work again soon and I'm super anxious about it and now this Tattoo that I hate.